Believe me I've tried. I try every time. Even when I explain myself, I say it happens all the time and they don't do anything at hospital, they are never willing to let me go cos I always present as a mess. Even on a good day. I do get very disorientated and there are normally a few little things wrong physically (bp, pulse, pupils being dilated). They say it's extreme dissociation but dissociation shouldn't affect your breathing. And sometimes, not always, my breathing isn't good. To be honest nobody seems to have a clue what it is or how to deal with it.
Do you have anyone that could pick you up if you pass out?
I know in my case, the paramedics wouldn't have to take me to hospital if I had someone come and pick me up, but because I don't and have to go on public transport, they have to take me to hospital, I think to cover themselves more than anything.
Or maybe if you got them to phone the staff and the staff could tell them that you didn't need to go to hospital?
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
That's a good idea. Not sure who could pick me up though. That was the plan with Brigid but I got the paramedics to call them today and they said I was schziophrenic and needed to be checked out! No idea who spoke to them but the rule here is that I don't go to hosp if I pass out. I did wonder whether that would actually happen especially with agency staff. Need to talk to them.
Thanks. It's hard to remember how aware of it I am beforehand because I'm always so out of it and forget things easily. I think I've got better at knowing it's going to happen. But I think that makes me panic and might make it more likely to happen. I've tried sitting down somewhere before it happens, did that last week, but just ended up passing out on the chair and someone noticed. Sometimes I think it would be better behind a closed door, like in a disabled toilet if it's in public but I'd be scared id be there for hours. There has been time it's gone on that long. I don't know what causes it but it gets worse with stress.
Just wrote out a massive reply and then my battery went. Fml.
Basically I'm stressed out my mind and not sure how to cope. Best friend is in hospital in lots of pain, need to feed her cat and pick up her stuff from home. Boyfriend went over to clear his dads place out and he's really vulnerable and wants me to go over. Meant to be cooking dinner at the hostel for everyone tonight, like now but I'm not even there. Gp was a giant pain in the arse and wouldn't prescribe me my regular meds without proof that I'm on them cos apparently they don't show on the notes.i told her to call my old gp and cpn but I've not heard anything. I don't have time to go back to the gps or to the pharmacy which means I'm without meds until Tuesday at the earliest. Really not what I need right now. I'm about to pass out and the thought of being in a&e two days in a row is mortifiying. My eczema is really bad. And I'm meant to be going to Newcastle to deal with family stuff I don't have the time or energy for. Sorry this was a massive rant. I don't know what to do.
Could you go out of hours doctors to get your meds prescribed. It really isn't going to do you any good going without. I would talk to the staff where you live and make them aware of the situation and see what they suggest.
Sorry to hear that you are so stressed, perhaps being gentle with yourself and getting over the past few days will help.
If you feel like you are going to pass out inform staff so that they can keep an eye on you. It may be worth lying or sitting down if you are feeling like this.
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This thread is going round and round i circles and I don't really understand.
I'm sorry you're having such a rough time but I'm glad you have a lot of support in place I'd recommend stressing to your GP that you need to find out why you're passing out because if you did it in the middle of the road you could be seriously hurt. It's their job to figure out whats medically wrong with you.
Other than that what is it we can do to help?
This seems to be happening a lot. It must be so distressing for you.
Are they any clearer on why this keeps on happening?
Thanks, no they don't seem to have any ideas. My GP referred me to cardiology a while back and I have an appointment in May. The A&E doc seemed pleased about that when I told him. The general consensus is that it's psychological/stress or something.
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This thread is going round and round i circles and I don't really understand.
I'm sorry you're having such a rough time but I'm glad you have a lot of support in place I'd recommend stressing to your GP that you need to find out why you're passing out because if you did it in the middle of the road you could be seriously hurt. It's their job to figure out whats medically wrong with you.
Other than that what is it we can do to help?
Why do you think it's going round in circles and what don't you understand? The ongoing support is helpful especially when so much is going on.
I'm feeling much better today. I slept for a while and going to try and sort a few things before I go to Newcastle for the weekend to see family. I think it'll be good for me to get away.
Yeah I might do that. Soooo many things that I need to speak to her about! Just need to tidy, pack, see my ex and get the train. And nap at some point.
I've taken it slow and been able to sleep when I was about to pass out. Plus I'm in Newcastle at my mums now which is safer. I think I managed to sleep last too which helped.
Well done Katie. That's excellent for not self harming or passing out today. I'm glad that Newcastle is safer.
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