oh joy, my current CC has just rang and is coming to visit me tomorrow morning at 9. I want to swap her, really, really don't want to see her. going to try and chill with some music and more painting. shall still be about though.
*hugs*
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'When words fail, music speaks'
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don't get on with her, don't tell her anything really, she only finds out stuff from reading the online system that my group therapy staff and psych write on. She rang my mum and told her loads of stuff without asking me if she could or letting me know she was going to. She rang the crisis team when I specifically asked her not to, she never rings when she says she will and then when she does makes it out as if I was supposed to ring, when I know damn well I wasn't, she said she would. she makes me angry and I am fed up with her. other people know I want to change her, not sure if it has got through to her though. If it has it will be awkward tomorrow, it will be horrible anyway because I know she only rang and is coming because of what I told group yesterday and they told her and I don't want to talk to her about it.
sorry to go on.
*hugs Mark* supermarkets stress me out full stop. If I have to go in one, hood up, headphones with music on loud, very fast walking without looking at anyone and self service checkouts, which I then argue with!
I'm going to do a home workout now and then some washing up, then more of my ship painting and rigging.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
*hugs Mark* supermarkets stress me out full stop. If I have to go in one, hood up, headphones with music on loud, very fast walking without looking at anyone and self service checkouts, which I then argue with
Every time , Oliver :/
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I hate supermarkets coz i have to read EVERY label and packet that goes in my trolley for calorie and fat and sugar content. It makes the time in the supermarket double, i get upset watching people who can sling food in their basket without a care in the world so my carer usually goes and if i go with him i stay in the cafe and have a drink. so i can empathise with you guys but maybe for different reasons but thats not the point really.
BIG BIG news! I had kinda given up checking daily for eggs but something made me go and have a look during an ad break on tv (you know where this is going!) and i found my first 3 EGGS! EGGS, EGGS, EGGS, EGGS! one was broken and i cleaned the mess up carefully coz if chickens get a taste for eggs (which they do easily) they will end up eating their own eggs straight after laying them. The other two were small but perfectly formed and i took photos of them before removing them, lol! Thought that might make you smile guys!
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THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
EGGSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!! That is awesome Liddy, yay for eggs, did indeed make me smile.
I am similar with labels Liddy, I sometimes read for calories, have to check if it isn't obviously vegetarian or doesn't say on the front I then have to read to find out and I have to check to see if stuff has palm oil in it, as I boycott eating palm oil. But yeah my main hate of supermarkets is other people, so anxiety and paranoia, plus they are noisy and bright which makes me panic and want to either curl up in a ball or scream and punch stuff.
I did my first online shop with Tesco last week, it was good, except the guy came into my flat to deliver the stuff which freaked me out, but I was too anxious to ask him not to.
I've just realised I have listened to the first two LOTR sound tracks the first two Pirates of the Caribbean soundtracks and now on The Sweeney Todd soundtrack!
I have decided I am not sleeping tonight, going to crack on with my ship and a bit of cleaning and taking rubbish out, plus clean my hamsters home. Then I will be awake for the dreaded visit from my CC at 9am! and she may actually be able to sit somewhere!
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
Glad my eggs made you smile. i felt a very proud mother at that point but didnt know which 3 hens to congratulate and praise seeing as they don't stamp their name on the eggs as they come out, lol!
Would it be an idea to get some sleep so you are fit to see this woman tomorrow - good luck btw. you need your wits about you and thats hard to have if you are tired?
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
seeing as they don't stamp their name on the eggs as they come out, lol!
That made me laugh!!! Imagine if chickens had their name printed on their foot like a stamp and stamped their eggs!!!
I'm normally better on no sleep than some sleep I find. If I get ridiculously tired I will go to bed, but otherwise I will power through. To be honest I will be angry with her however much sleep I have or haven't had, plus I'm not telling her anything she doesn't already know.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
I have the same vege probs Oliver, Yaaaaaay Eggs Liddy!
yeah some packages don't make it clear and you presume it is veggie friendly, but can never be 100% sure, so I stand their reading all the ingredients, or looking for the vegetarian label, very annoying.
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'When words fail, music speaks'
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I have the same vege probs Oliver, Yaaaaaay Eggs Liddy!
Thank you Mark! *proud mum!*
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That made me laugh!!! Imagine if chickens had their name printed on their foot like a stamp and stamped their eggs!!!
That would be cool!
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Liddy all this chicken and egg talk has made me about to watch one of the best films ever, Chicken Run!!!
Cool film that, i've seen it! But of course my chickens are more entertaining and would make an even cooler film - if any film producers are watching PM me and i'll give you my details and we can make another film - 'chickens running' perhaps.
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well that was um........... interesting in a bad way, but I guess something good came out of it.
Do you want to talk about it oliver?
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My CC came round, started off me not talking, then she got annoyed with me and said she wasn't a mind reader, I then got annoyed, then started crying uncontrollably and actually told her some stuff I feel I need, because she said she doesn't think I need a CC or the CMHT because I don't have a physical illness/disability that means I need practical help, I thought to myself why is it called the community mental health team then if she is basing it on me not having a physical disability. Anyway I said I needed help with practical stuff, I may seem independent and capable because I live alone and moved away from my parents at 18, but I am really not capable, it can take between 30-60 minutes to get out of my front door, I have to self harm before I even try, then when I am out it is hood up, music on loud and walk quickly, except then I slow down round bridges, or I start yelling and swearing and people get angry with me so I panic and freak out more. So in the end she said she would refer me to the support worker in the CMHT, she said there is a great guy called Lee who she thinks would work well with me, he could take me to the shops, or town or the gym etc and help me get out and about and maybe go back to some of my activities I haven't been o since december. So that is a positive, no idea if I will keep seeing her or another CC, not sure how that was resolved, but I feel we needed the annoyance today from both of us to get somewhere. Have to force myself out now and into town, for a bus pass form and paints for my ship otherwise it won't get finished and I won't have a bus pass anymore. Feel stupid for crying so much, I literally couldn't stop for ages.
sorry to go on and on there everyone.
how are you Liddy?
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
I'm sorry it was so difficult with ur cc but least u have got something out of it now fingers crossed u don't need to go through that palaver again though
How's everyone else
Had a tough session of Dbt she has given me a right kick up the arse so hopefully that will help me with using more of my skills
