Contains sexual abuse - Remembering

[melting_snow]

Gone.

[Patent Pending]

Hey,

I'm sorry this happened to you, and that it's making you feel so mixed up right now.

I think talking to someone about this might be something to consider. From what I've learnt about remembering things; they don't tend to just go away again without working on them.

Perhaps you could talk to your current counsellor or perhaps show her this post - it explains things well and explains your concern about not being believed.

I wish I had some words that could help, but I read and I care.

x x x

[AthenaSoul]

I think you've experienced a lot of important insights into your behaviour and motives and that is really good.

What prevents you from sharing with your counsellor?

[crazykat]

Why do you think you struggle to tell your counsellor about this particular incident? I think if you can it would really help for you to talk it through with them. If your finding it hard to say it out aloud you could always print out what you have posted and show them that instead if that is easier. Take care

[Patent Pending]

Hey honey,

How are things going for you?

x x x

[Wintakephe]

Just wondering, how are you doing now?

[melting_snow]

Hello

I forgot I'd made this thread so apologies for waking up such an old one.

Things have been difficult recently. I've had to defer uni through no fault of my own.

I told my ocunsellor about the stuff and she was very kind and understanding which is not what I expected.

I haven't been out much and havent been changing from my PJs. I was watching a film the other day that I've seen 459072309852234 times before, but this time was different. It has SA in it and it triggered a memory I'd forgotten about. I ended up in A&E with more stitches than I care to count.

The day after I was playing with my friends dog. I'd given her a pigs ear and she tried to bite me so I took it off her and told her "bad girls don't get nice things". It triggered more memories of my mum (who died 6 years ago and was also very abusive, although neglectful rather than sexual) who used to say this to me all the time. I was in a&e that night along with a referral to plastics...

Things are still very weird. I've been signed off sick from my job. I have a meeting at uni tomorrow to find out what will happen next. I'm very scared and frightened but am cuddling my guinea pigs to seek comfort. I have also been to the park to look at the ducklings a couple of times too.

[crazykat]

I am sorry that things have been difficult but I am glad to hear that your counsellor has been supportive of you. Is there anything that could help with your level of distress at the moment. Perhaps some things that are self-soothing.