Triggering (SI) - feeling nothing *?trigger*

[a1one]

Does any1 ever get that feeling, of feeling nothing?
I don't know what's been up with me lately, but something's not right. I don't laugh at funny jokes/situations, I'm not crying at sad or hurtful things, I'm not feeling happy when someone says something nice, or does a nice gesture.
I'm just so numb at the moment and I don't know why.

Before, I would go straight for my knief/razor, but since I've started dating my girlfriend, I have barely thought about SI. It's been nearly a year and now I almost feel like i'm missing out. I loved that feeling, that rush, when you feel that little sting and then everything's released.
I know I shouldn't do it, she would see the mark I'd make and start asking questions. But I'd almost do anything for that feeling again...

I'm just being daft, but was wondering if anyone else feels the way I am at the moment, so numb.

Mark

[scarred4life532]

I kind of get that too. Like nothing affects you. I just attributed it to depression.

Its sad but really the only thing that I like, that I look forward to is SI.

[thingsareslippingagain]

could you talk to your girlfriend about it?

It might help a little, to explain it to someone close to you?

And yes, i get that feeling, as if nothing can touch you, but at the same time, everything hurts. But thats just me.
x

[cutupangel09]

I get numb is more of the feeling I get it sucks becuase I know cutting helps. I understand actually wanting that feeling and nothing else is the same. For me it can bring out emotion or push them away.
Do you have anyone you could talk to maybe?
Great job on though on trying to recover. Stay Strong.
PM me if you want.

[perfectlyimperfect]

I completely understand that feeling,
I used to be such an emotional person, everything hit me
I was almost borderline bi-polar I got such intense emotions, and really big mood swings and now I dont feel anything, it's like living in a dream sometimes, and all I want to do is feel again, even though my emotions caused alot of problems living like a robot isn't the better solution.

You're definitly not alone though, and I think you should trust your girlfriend enough to tell her what you're feeling exactly because maybe she could be helpful to you..

Turning to blades everytime we feel like this won't help us in the long run, maybe 3 seconds before guilt sinks in, stay strong if you want to feel again try;

-amusement park (scary rides and stuff)
-taking a really cold bath
-instead of cutting snap an elastic band on your wrist

it doesnt work for everyone, but maybe it could work for you.