confused,

[MistressOfMisery]

when I was 12, I was sleeping at my mums boyfriends house, all the adults where in the other room listening too music and us kids were sleeping in the loungeroom. my mums boyfriends 19 year old cousin was there, and while i was trying too sleep he started touching me, not under my clothes or anything, but everytime I would move away he would come back towards me and start again. I feel so stupid, I wasn't raped, and yet I still feel dirty, I cringe when people touch me and I feel so stupid for over reacting so much, what is wrong with me? am I just a huge drama queen?

[Patent Pending]

Hi there.

It's not an over reaction. What he did to you was wrong - and whatever feelings you're having from it are natural and okay.

Do you think it may help to speak to someone about this? Does anyone else know?

Try not to be too hard on yourself. These things can take a while to move on from.

x x x

[Belt]

Understanding what happened, and that is sexual molestation (which although is not technically 'rape' is still a violation of your physical body and emotional thought) is incredibly upsetting and genuinely difficult to process. You might that this might take some time to "work out" I myself have spent the better part of a decade sorting through my feelings about my my sexual molestation. I cringed away from sexual relations for years and have only begun to actually enjoy or even legitimately consent to sex now. I would have saved myself so much time, effort and pain if I had've gone to see a therapist sooner and if I had been more honest with said therapist SOONER! Please speak to your GP or contact your local mental health charity for a referral. PM me if you want to talk. Stay safe

Love Robyn x