Graphic - Feeling tired of life

[ADownie25]

Since moment i woke up this morning i knew it was going to be a really tough day and i was right. Although i loved spending the time with my gf and her daughter i felt like i was there in presence but that was all as if i was in Auto pilot for most of the time. Is this normal? is my brain just shutting down because of all the loss ive had with my uncle and cousin and boss dying has it (my brain) had enough? i really dont know i just hate the feeling. I dont want to disconnect myself in order to get through this tough time.

On positive note i am going to my first information meeting with a new counselling service on the 5th of August. I really welcome the support they can offer me but at the same time i am apprehensive as i know i dont trust new people easily. On top of that i built up a really good relationship with my previous consellor who i no longer attend as shes out within my area.

On top of that im going back to the gym with my gf but the personal trainer thats giving me the inductions has cancelled on me twice now and thats really affected how i see her as a person towards me. Shes been very apologetic but i still feel those feelings even though i know its my own stuff thats triggering it. I see her tomorrow at 2:30pm for my induction my gf is coming a long which i really appreciate she has been a rock to me these past few months and continues to be even though ive given her the life of hell. Just dont know how im going to get on with the personal trainer now that shes cancelled twice after saying on both occassions that it would go ahead. Any advice is greatly appreciated at this moment in time

[lauracathrine1x]

Hey, loss can really mess up how you normally think, it takes away the enjoyment for a while but I promise it will pass with time, and you will be able to spend time with your loved ones again. I feel exactly the same as I'm starting with a new counsellor on the 18th, its pretty easy to get nervous if you don't open up easily. I guess we need to take a small chance to feel better. Its good that you want to work out, I find running and weights really help clear my mind and absorb some anger, is there any exercise you could do independently in the mean time? Laura.

[ADownie25]

i could do my push ups and sit ups but that takes a lot of energy and i really dont feel up to anything just now :( all i can do is cry and my relationship is getting affected aswell :( just dont want to be here anymore :(

[lauracathrine1x]

You could also go for a walk, its still physical activity just more relaxed, it gets you out and about and if you don't want to be bothered with anyone listen to music, or you could start simple and just eat healthily for a few days and know that you've already started contributing to your fitness regime already. I know its easy to feel like giving up, do you have any coping strategies which you think might help you? L.

[cloudedmind]

Sorry things are tough right now hun.

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Originally Posted by ADownie25

Since moment i woke up this morning i knew it was going to be a really tough day and i was right.

^ Do you think that you could write down a plan of things that would help you on a bad day (e.g. things you enjoy doing, a list of distractions, people to call/text if you feel awful, time in the day you can have to yourself if you need to get away for a bit, etc) so that when you wake up with the feeling of knowing it's a tough day you will have a more practical and strategic approach to fighting it, rather than being emotion-driven and letting things become overwhelming?

I understand this is easier said than done and sometimes it's good to just 'give in' and rest as such, but you've gotta keep fighting, especially if there are a lot of tough days :)

[ADownie25]

Thanks Cloudedmind, those are really good ideas, im so sorry ive not replied sooner ive been having a really hard time recently with the loss of loved ones.

[Cacoethes]

have you had any kind of grief counselling?
Your gf sounds like she's been really helpful, it's so good to have caring people around, especially at such a difficult time x