I'm sorry the cleaners said that, it wasn't right but I am glad that at least one of them apologised. I think putting the list together so you have a plan for when you come home is a good idea. Thinking of you xx
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Im sorry I'm only seeing this now and I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time. You've still been there for me despite your own problems which shows what a lovely person you are. I know you will get through this and I hope you will be home soon and feeling a little better xx
Just wanted to drop in and leave you some hugs, I'm sorry that the cleaners said that they're clearly very ignorant, but like Kat said at least one of them apologised. The list sounds like a really good idea, I hope that you're able to start on it. You're in my thoughts sweetheart I hope that things are starting to improve for you xxx
I have just realised, upon hearing a sad song, how vulnerable I still am to the thought of suicide as the answer. Obviously this is bad because I want to go home essentially tomorrow. (In fact I need to go home). So if I remember I'll discuss this with my nurse today at a decent hour (currently 430am).
Note to Aimee: remember!
Thanks again for all the support :) I did make a really good list of things to do, I even rated which activities to do depending on how low my mood is.
Aw Aimee. Do you think you would act on these feelings if you went home? There's a saying my sister has about this kind of thing "it's okay to look, but don't touch", which kind of means, thinking about it is okay, but acting on it not so much. What do you think?
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
I think that's what I have to make sure of in the next 24 hours. I had my hair dryer returned to me to see if I could cope with the cord and so far I have. The thought crossed my mind but then I thought, no I want to go home. So I think once I get home I'll have to plan lots of great things for a while so if the thoughts to touch, instead of just look, come back I can pinpoint things I don't want to miss out on (until the depression lifts and then I want to experience everything again).
Thank you for your kind and helpful reply Sophia :)
I feel like a lot of great ideas have come out of this thread and I'm going to write them all down later.
Also today I'm going to be honest to my dad about my weight being the force behind my suicidal thoughts and ask if he will help me pay for a weight loss eating program where they give you the meals. I just have to word it so it doesn't sound like emotional black mail so I might start with the request first then explain why.
I've done more work on this thread on strategies than I have in hospital. You guys are good like that :)
That does sound very positive Aimee. Maybe it's worth saying that it's making you really unhappy without using the word suicidal, and see what he say. I know what you mean about a program; we have a few here and they do have a lot more success that dieting alone would.
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
hello hun, I'm sorry to hear you're not too well at them moment. It makes me so sad that your weight bothers you so much when you clearly are such a beautiful person. I really do hope you feel better soon and that the hospital helps you, although I know they're not the most pleasant of places x stay safe chick
I hope you are allowed to go home tomorrow and your safety plan is helpful.
I think talking to your dad about how your weight is bothering you so much is a good idea. You need all the support you can get!!
You can get through this Aimee!
Life can be beautiful if you let it.
Step back, breathe and take it in
Hi Aimee, I'm sorry to hear about the cleaners. I actually think it was a pretty reasonable request, please don't feel bad. It's great that you confronted them, that shows great assertiveness skills. I hope that you're able to formulate a plan for when you are discharged from hospital. I think talking to your Dad about your weight issues is a good idea. Hopefully once he's aware he will be able to support you better.
When life gets you down do you know what you've gotta do?
I don't have a great deal of words right now, but I wanted to let you know I am thinking of you. You are such a positive and insightful person to have around the boards, it is sad to think of you suffering so much. Do feel free to PM me to talk at any time if you would like to. Be kind to yourself xx
Oh you all have just melted my heart with your kindness <3
Each of these replies are so beautiful, thank you.
I've been able to book back into a tour of wineries on horseback tomorrow that all my friends are going on, soI'm going to surprise them and I am so excited. I'm going to try and get discharged tonight so I can prepare properly at home but they don't often do that so it may not be ppossible.
But I'll have to put the excitement away for the day while I'm in here and work on my thoughts. Your encouragement means so much to me. Thank you all xxxxx
Thank you all so much!
I am home now :) my meeting with my psychiatrist before I left went so well, she explained to my dad that coming back into hospital was actually a really good thing because it was proactive, and that I knew it was time to go home too before I got too comfortable there which would make going back to the real world hard. She was really positive about me, even said to my dad "you've got a wonderful daughter"!
So now I'm just resting before a big day tomorrow. It's only been a few days but it feels like an adjustment being home, but I'm sure that will ease.
Wow, I'm so pleased that you feel this stay went well for you :)
I hope you have a lovely time with your friends, and that your dad is understanding of your request.
Do not be dismayed by the brokenness of the world. All things can be mended. Not with time, as they say, but with intention. So go. Love intentionally, extravagantly, unconditionally. The broken world awaits in darkness for the light that is you.
