I think you should mention it to your friend as soon as you can. I'm so sorry, I'm not very aware about Od'ing, so I don't know if that's normal or not, which is why you should make sure somebody is there for you.
Hope everything goes okay at the court x Don't be nervous, you're not alone.
So I got home about 15min or so ago... It wound up only costing $215... it should have cost at least double or triple that lol... but I'm really relieved :) The judge was actually laughing about a lot of it... esp when I said that I only left the accident because I didn't realize I had hit the other person...
I still don't feel good though, and keep getting dizzy, and yet, I still am so tempted to go back in my bedroom and take more of an OD... I'm so stupid, and feel like **** for wanting to do it too :(
I'm pleased the outcome was so sensible & positive - that's great news hun :)
If you're still not feeling good it really would be best to go get checked out by a doctor - at your nearest hospital or at least a walk in clinic. I hear what you're saying, and I want to say you're NOT stupid. But taking another OD really won't change things sweetie, you know yourself that it won't solve the problems that are making you feel so miserable x
“No live organism can continue for long to exist sanely under conditions of absolute reality.”
― Shirley Jackson, The Haunting of Hill House
I know it won't really make anything better, or change things... but idk, I still feel like I need to OD and pass out and sleep or a day or three... I just *sigh* need to get away from everything... Everyone expects something from me, everyone expects me to be a certain way, or do things a certain way, and just be ok, and I hate pretending all the time... and I'm tired of having to pretend... :(
I care raindrop :) I'm not very okay either to be honest. Trying to figure out what happened to push me over from "hopeless" to "dead inside" if that makes sense! Just feel like I've lost the remnants of sanity & potential-for-hope... But hey, at least I can be miserable in this room and have cookies & corners & blankets!
I understand the feeling of being overwhelmed by expectations Shoshana, sometimes it just feels really really hard to say "I can't be the person you're e expecting me to be". Is there a safer way you could get some down time? I hate pretending too... Today I decided not to pretend...(Mondays I don't have any commitments, & tend to not see anyone other than my key worker) People didn't really know what to do or say *sighs*... So, tomorrow I go back to pretending. But it was nice to have the day without needing to.
“No live organism can continue for long to exist sanely under conditions of absolute reality.”
― Shirley Jackson, The Haunting of Hill House
yeah i totally get what you mean rainbow.. i feel so lost i wouldnt even attempt to try and find my way home kind of speak if that makes sense i dont even know where my home is.. if i have one its all a mess stupid people and messiness.. i want cookies right now thats all i want
each person brings something new to the world.. all i bring is my smile and thats all i need
