*hugs Bridie, Kat, Mark and Rachael* I'm sorry you guys are going through a rough time! I can reflate to some of it! X
Rachael, CAE stands for Cambridge English : Advanced Exam. If you pass it you get a certificate in advanced English, if English isn't your first language :)
I need it to apply to university! :S
I hope your anxiety will diminish soon! X
I went to pride. It was lovely! :)I had a lot of fun, met my trans friend and danced with some sexy people. It was nice and really made me feel like I belonged. I've had this proud smile on my face afterwards for like 30 minutes!
The exam was okay I guess. Tomorrow is my speaking test so I hope I won't completely **** up.
im glad you enjoyed pride lucy, im yet to go to a pride maybe il get the courage to go to this one!
Thank you Kat :)
at the moment I feel sick, im worried i may have caught my mums tummy bug, but I cant stop binging, every bite makes me feel 10 x more sick, and im in recovery no purging for me. It feels horrable, and Id been planning to do a big od today but evidently i must of changed my mind, I still want to live. oh and in half an hour its my birthday, i could use a cuddle?
Aww Happy Birthday Bridie X *hugs and cuddles*
I hope you're feeling better by now! X
I managed to be brave enough to go, I'm sure you can also do it. It's a wonderful experience! :)
I also can't stop binging :( I'm sure you'll manage to stop though, it may be hard, but you can do it!
And my speaking test is in like 5 hours and I'm scared as hell.
Sarah, thank you. I'm sorry you're still struggling with impulses and stuff. Been there. X I hope your mood gets better :)
Kat, thank you :) How are you? X My exam went well, my speaking was OK I think though the examiner stopped me in the middle of my sentence because I didn't have any time left(but it wasn't fair because I had NO idea how much time I had left, because we couldn't see the timer!) Other than that it went well. I'm just glad it's finally over.
*glompy-glomps Mark* Happy Birthday to your mom! :) Hope you have a nice time.
I'm sorry you're feeling like that! X I think I know the feeling but it's kinda hard to explain! X I'm so sorry that I have no useful advice, but try to hang in there and try to think positively, like I somehow managed to destroy some urges&bad thoughts today by thinking 'no this isn't a good thing I shouldn't be thinking about this, rather than that thinking of -x thing- would be better" . Maybe trying something like this can help, even if its hard!? X I really hope you feel better soon! X
so ive done a half circle and i just kinda feel a bit down now, but a lot calmer.
I'm thinking about going to see the doctor to se eif i can get re do DBT or a similar group to what i did last time...but i dont want him to call the psych..because i hate my old psych and i dont want meds...
dilema. any advise?
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
Sarah, I'm not sure what exactly you can do! I think that maybe only your psych can say if you need DBT or not? Though I'm not sure(I'm not even in the UK so...) Could you maybe ask for another psych? Is that possible? X
I hope you are able to get into a therapy group or something similar that might be helpful! X
And the video is very nice! I liked the relationship part and the end with all the 'symptoms' overwhelming him and then leaving him in silence I think it portrayed the emptiness I tend to feel sometimes really well. And the part where they said some posibile positive characteristics about people with BPD like the PD isn't everything. :)
I wonder what bpd was diagnosed as years ago , been told i have it but i cant understand what anything means anymore my brain is behaving weird. Im anxious and depressed sad angry shameful and confused acting very impulsive but my low moods now come on suddenly for no reason to why i suddenly feel like i do. Its happening too much now and its annoying me . Getting suicidal harmful thought that happen whenever my mind isnt focussed on something.
What i feel and understand is that try not to even think what their diagnosis means , they can call it whatever they want as far as im concerned . Its purely a label that doesnt concern me , i just get frustrated at trying to understand it all , ihear what they tell me but i just want to know why i feel like i do.
