Thanks guys, pissed off as the recovery team have lost all my paper work one thing to the other with them ¬¬ just so tyerd of my self how is everyone else?
Heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
angel of despair - i have had group DBT before and found it helped me learn new skills to help myself in a crisis.
crazykat - I really lost all motivation this morning and couldn't even get out of bed. I was constantly sobbing and my eyes are still hurting from crying so much. I had to call my sister to come help me and I went to hers to get out of the flat and have some tea xx.
Sorry i've not been here in ages, the truth is i've felt a lot like i don't have BPD anymore,
Untill recently I'm majorly sturggeling again with my emotions and i'm really scared of slipping back into "poor mental health" when i've been doing well for so long.
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
I cant put my finger on whats going on all i know is that its like walking on a tightrope one minute i sway from fine to impending death or craziness and i'm just try to walk along a neutral middle and its so imcredibly hard
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
How is everybody else?(sorry I am not entirely up for individuals as I am very stressed)
Thing is tomorrow is my CAE exam, which should be really important.Well, I am good at English...This is one of the things I REALLY am good at..Which means the exam shouldn't be that hard. But I have to be prepared for the Writing part of the exam, which shouldn't be that hard either as I'm kinda trained for this..but I'm still scared. Not to mention the Speaking part(which is on Sunday) is scaring the **** out of me. How can I speak in front of some examiners I don't know.....:( And I just can't concentrate on studying at ALL. I have been like this for some time, I couldn't concentrate for school either. And I probably got 4/10 on most of my midterms :(((
Then my other problem is that tomorrow after the exam, I am going to the pride parade, which is a big event! This week was Gay Pride week here, and the parade is tomorrow! And I have been waiting for this for so long. But now I feel so discouraged 'cause my best friend won't be coming with me(he has his reasons) and I am going to go alone, and I don't know anyone there(except maybe for one girl-and I'm not even sure if we'll meet..).
I am going to my exam :) I can do this, I am solely depending on my current language skills, nothing more. Though I've been reading stuff about academic writing in the past hour so hopefully it'll be okay. :)
im feeling rather disappointed with myself today. Iv'e been invited to go to town for a food festival with a good friend but I am not going as it will be too crowded and my anxiety is not great :( Hate that I can not do the things which I used to be able to do x.
