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Life is so hard atm
So where do I begin?!
My 9 month old daughter has been ill all week and I've been up with her most of the night the last 2 nights, we're on the sofas tonight as she wouldn't settle anywhere else. She's been asleep for the last 2 hours. We're also having a chicken pox scare...
My husband was ill last week with a very bad shoulder and this week we have found out he probably has lymes disease thanks to a tic bite. He's on very strong anti biotics... He's still working!!! (He's a gardener so does very heavy manual labor) he's too stubborn to take time off so is coming in extra tired and feeling extra crap. Then mongs out in front if the telly watching sports, and when he watches tv he really is unresponsive as he completely zones in. Kinda annoys me as it would be nice to speak to an adult after being with a 9 month old all day.
I have had about 15 hours sleep this week so far and doing everything around the house atm, I've recently come off depakote due to it making me fat..
I am aching all over, I cannot get any sleep tonight, my heart feels like its trying to jump out of my chest, my glands are going up and down and my moods are so wobbily. I have been thinking non stop of cutting and od-ing, but obviously it's all only thoughts so far... I haven't taken my seroquel tonight as I'm terrified if I fall asleep too heavily I can't keep an eye in my little girl incase she falls off the sofa.
I needed to get this off my chest...
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