I'm not asking for a diagnosis; I just want someone's opinion on if this is a sign of something more serious. I'd also like advice on trying to stop with this action I keep doing as it is not a good act.
I have this complusive desire to steal. Mainly books from my school librarby, but I've stolen a few other things, too, in the past two weeks or so. I've stolen 50+ books from the library and two masks and a candle off the table from prom last weekend. I keep saying to myself I'm gonna stop, but I keep doing it. I see a book that interests me and I grab it and stuff it in my backpack on impulse. One turns into two which turns into four which goes on until I can't fit anymore books in my bag. It scares me.
My mother knows about this, but she has just said, "You better stop." She has done nothing else besides say that.
It also doesn't help my boyfriend doesn't scold me for it. In fact, he thinks it's cool that I do that. What? I secretly get pissed at him every time he doesn't give me negative feedback on my theft. He's my boyfriend; he should encourage me to not steal stuff.
Now, I turn it to you guys. Is this a sign of a more serious problem I should look into? What can I do to stop myself from stealing stuff?
Major Depression | Asperger's Syndrome | Anxiety NOS | Hints of OCD
Close your eyes. Don't you cry. Love's around you. In time, you'll fly. Don't you worry about the dark. I will light up the night with the love in my heart. I will burn like the sun that will keep you safe and warm. Like the smell of a rose on a summer's day, I will be there to take all your fears away. With the touch of my hand, I will turn your life to GOLD!
Do you see a counsellor or similar? Would you be able to bring it up?
I do think it is something that needs to be addressed asap. The way you talk about it makes it sound like a compulsion- maybe try and find ways how to deal with them without acting on them. Could you text someone instead for distraction? How do you feel before, while, and after acting on the compulsion?
What is missing in your life? Wanting things tends to indicate a feeling of emptiness somewhere emotional.
Well, RECENTLY, I feel like I am missing part of my heritage. I am part Native American and I have no idea what tribe I am. The theft started around the time I found out a close friend is part NA as well, but he knows his tribe and does stuff with his tribe. I have tried all I could to find out my tribe, but nothing has been successful.
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Do you see a counsellor or similar? Would you be able to bring it up?
I do think it is something that needs to be addressed asap. The way you talk about it makes it sound like a compulsion- maybe try and find ways how to deal with them without acting on them. Could you text someone instead for distraction? How do you feel before, while, and after acting on the compulsion?
I don't see anyone at the moment, but I am trying to be able to. My mother is not very supportive when it comes to this stuff though and denies there is something wrong with me.
The people I usually in school when I steal the books. :/ I feel like I need to have them before it happens. During, I feel very paranoid I will get caught. Afterwards, I am content until I take the books out of my bag. Then, I just need more books.
Major Depression | Asperger's Syndrome | Anxiety NOS | Hints of OCD
Close your eyes. Don't you cry. Love's around you. In time, you'll fly. Don't you worry about the dark. I will light up the night with the love in my heart. I will burn like the sun that will keep you safe and warm. Like the smell of a rose on a summer's day, I will be there to take all your fears away. With the touch of my hand, I will turn your life to GOLD!
So it's mostly about longing and roots? That makes a lot of sense.
And, as someone with an interest in symbolism, I do see a significance in the objects you're drawn towards. I can say more, but only if you're interested, as I know it's not everyone's way. It might also be something you'd like to explore yourself, kind of like working with a dream, if you've done that before.
Hmm... I think I believe what you are hinting at with the symbolism. Though the books are not limited to Native American topics, so that is where the symbolism is weird.
Major Depression | Asperger's Syndrome | Anxiety NOS | Hints of OCD
Close your eyes. Don't you cry. Love's around you. In time, you'll fly. Don't you worry about the dark. I will light up the night with the love in my heart. I will burn like the sun that will keep you safe and warm. Like the smell of a rose on a summer's day, I will be there to take all your fears away. With the touch of my hand, I will turn your life to GOLD!
Books - knowledge, information. That part of you seeking her identity likely goes very deep, and maybe isn't at a level of reading what they're about, but is desperate for some knowledge and knows that books can provide knowledge. Does that make sense?
Major Depression | Asperger's Syndrome | Anxiety NOS | Hints of OCD
Close your eyes. Don't you cry. Love's around you. In time, you'll fly. Don't you worry about the dark. I will light up the night with the love in my heart. I will burn like the sun that will keep you safe and warm. Like the smell of a rose on a summer's day, I will be there to take all your fears away. With the touch of my hand, I will turn your life to GOLD!
Is there any school counsellor or similar you could see? If you dn't feel able to bring up the stealing then you could always talk about how you feel about not knowing which tribe you're coming from and what it would mean to you to know.
The school counsellors refuse to concern themselves with me even though my friend has told them I hurt myself. :/ That's the only currently avaliable option, but of course, they don't really care. v.v I wish I wasn't afraid of driving. I'd get my driver's license and get myself help since Mom seems to deny something is wrong with me.
Major Depression | Asperger's Syndrome | Anxiety NOS | Hints of OCD
Close your eyes. Don't you cry. Love's around you. In time, you'll fly. Don't you worry about the dark. I will light up the night with the love in my heart. I will burn like the sun that will keep you safe and warm. Like the smell of a rose on a summer's day, I will be there to take all your fears away. With the touch of my hand, I will turn your life to GOLD!
Oh wow, that sounds pretty harsh :/ Have you looked into what your options are so far? And well done for organizing some support yourself! I agree that it would be really useful for you to have someone to help you with your issues. :)
