Hi guys. I wasn't sure whether to make a thread or not because I know people can often find them annoying, but I want closure and to say thanks and bye properly so that I can move on and not look back. I've decided that I'm going to be leaving RYL permanently. If I'm really honest with myself, I'm finding that logging on to here whilst I'm doing reasonably okay is hindering me, not helping me, and it probably has been for a while. It often triggers me coming here and I've realised that now might be the time to move on. I want to focus on my recovery and real life instead and to do that, RYL has to become a part of my past.
I just wanted to thank everyone for making me feel a part of the community and for all of the support over the years. I will miss logging in to the site at times, but it just feels like the right thing for me to do. I'm ready to go now! Another reason for making this is to just say that if anyone does want to keep in touch away from the site, then drop me a PM and I can give you my email or FB link depending on how well we know each other and if you want to. I'll log in over the next week to check PM's just in case, but after that I won't be logging in again.
I put this in Moving Forward because I see this as a step forward. I've been using self harm messages boards like this for twelve years now, and I just realise it's time for me to let go. Being here is holding me back.
Take care everyone and good luck with life and stuff <3
Best luck Louise. I will remember you. Hope you have a great future ahead of you.
Love from Meera xx
“The only way that we can live is if we grow. The only way we can grow is if we change. The only way we can change is if we learn. The only way we can learn is if we are exposed. And the only way that we are exposed is if we throw ourselves into the open.”
Massive well done Louise, I think that's a really sensible decision. I wish you the very best of luck for your future, I hope things continue to improve. I'll miss you, though! xxx
Well done for making this decision, I hope it's the right one for you and that you can make a full recovery :)
Do not be dismayed by the brokenness of the world. All things can be mended. Not with time, as they say, but with intention. So go. Love intentionally, extravagantly, unconditionally. The broken world awaits in darkness for the light that is you.
best of luck will send you a pm message in a minute
Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. I tried groups, didn't work out just made my depression a lot worse.
You are a simply beautiful person. Thank you for your support over the years and I'm proud of you for taking such positive steps forward. You deserve all the happiness.
xxx
Marie
rebellion / rebelliousness | she who raises | bitter | sea of bitterness / sorrow | lady / mistress of the sea | star of the sea | dew of the sea
Ohh, I'm sad that you're leaving! But I am really happy for you and this seems like a really good decision for you. I'm so proud of how far you've come! I hope things will continue to improve for you - though remember we're always here!
(If you wouldn't mind giving me your email I'd love to keep in touch with you! <3)
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
I will miss you lots Louise, you've always been fantastic to me! I hope this is the start to something really good for you, you have my number if you need anything & don't feel like you want to come back here. Thinking of you! *hugs*
And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears. And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears...
Sad to read this Lou, but then also happy that you feel this is going to be a positive step for you. Thank you for your support and kindness over the years, best of luck girl :) xx
There there baby, it's just text book stuff, it's in the ABC of growing up...
Hi Kismet, good luck with everything!
and i think its a really good decision to make if you feel its best for you even though it can be hard to leave.
Well done for all the progress you've made :)
♥ .I'm going to fall like I don't need saving. ♥
...My smile's just the armour I built when I was alone...
There was some part of me that hurt so badly, that I wouldn't ever be able to forget it.
It faded but the memories could bring it back any second, keeping me in the moment.
It would never fully heal. I could never really be free. I could never really be fixed. Now I just have to work out how to live whilst being broken.
I feel like I'm dying.
