am i becoming psychotic?

[DannieGirl]

after a few years of a diagnosis with bpd which i disagreed with due to my mood swings being a lot longer and more intense, as well as hearing voices, i'm know to dissociate and i suffered with post natal psychosis after having my daughter 6 months ago.
i went to a private psychiatrst who diagnosed me with bipolar, he said that he is because psychotherapy hasn't worked, anti-depressants obviously make me worse and havent helped and that the quetiapine has obviously reduced my manias over the years of being on it. when i was pregnant i went down from 400mg a day to 75mg a day to reduce any probelms to my baby
...am in the process of my medication being sorted out, i see the pdoc again on the 14th.
when i went to see him i was in a manic state which had been a week long by then... he increased my quetiapine to 300mg and told me to come off venlafaxine. the increase really helped and it brought down the manic...since then, which has been about 3 weeks i was higher than a stable mood but not high enough for a manic...it wasn't getting in the way of normal life like the manic was..but i have been overly bubbly and sociable and been in quite a fast pace.
well for the last 4 days i've been having thoughts of stabbing myself...not in a suicidal way...i just have these visions of doing it and i keep thinking about it...last night, i wouldn't take my medication because i am adiment that some kind of evil spirit is trying to get into my head, so i had to stay awake to make sure that it wasn't going to happen...and i am still adament it's happening...my mood has dropped considerably over night, the other thing is that i have been paranoud about locking door again, which was somethign that came up when i was postnatally psychotic.

i feel weird, reall yagainst the world right now, very snappy, and i just feel like a body moving around, not even sure where my mind is right now.

[Ballerina123]

Firstly I would say, continue to take your meds as prescribed because if you don't this is likely to spiral out of control.

Secondly call your psych about how you have been feeling. I am currently coming of venlavaxine and one of the withdrawal symptoms can be paranoia so there is a possibility that it could be that so speaking to a psych is a good idea.

[Patent Pending]

I think it's important to speak to your psych, possibly before the appointment and let him know what's going on for you. As said above the withdrawal from Venlafaxine can be pretty harsh so it may be some effects from that.

When medication gets changed it can always cause some symptoms to become more apparent so it's important to keep your MH team informed of any changes.

At the end you say about feeling like a body moving around and not sure where your head is - that sounds a lot like a symptom I experience when I miss a Venlafaxine dose.

If you're unable to speak to your psych before the appointment; try writing all these things down so you can show it to him in the appointment.

x x x

[K8EB]

I agree with the other posters - please talk to your psych as soon as possible and if you have a family member talk to them too. Your baby is only 6 months old so you need to get well for her ASAP. xxx

[DannieGirl]

thanks guys.. seeing the psych on thursday. i didn't have all this when coming off it last time..

[PinQ]

You could have a drug several times over the course of your life and still have different reactions to coming off it each time I think so it may well be the drug. Either way you need to do as the others has said and talk openly with your psych about it. Hope you manage to get it sorted.