To begin with we all go through this at some point in our life, questioning everything, seeking answers, and wondering if the whole world is mad.
I'm not a religious person and I can't say that I believe in the God of the bible but I do believe in a higher-power and I believe that power is within each of us.
I don’t think most people do imagine an empty blackness if they were not to exist anymore. Many people facing this become quite spiritual.
Ignorance is quite simply a lack of knowledge. Not believing in something doesn't mean it doesn't exist. It just means it doesn't exist for you in you present state of awareness.
That that you wish you could feel came to me while sitting by my mothers hospital bedside. A little old woman was going around offering kind words to people in such a soft voice. She showed me a newspaper clipping to offer up an explanation for what she did. It was about her and how she went around the hospital offering comfort to the sick and dying. She was a lovely, soft spoken, lady. I couldn't get her visit out of my head. I decided I wanted to be like her. That's when a peace came over me like I had never felt in my life before.
I can and do sense 'God' for want of a better word. I have experienced a higher-power working from time to time in my life. When I first experienced this it opened up a curiosity in me that almost became obsessive. I began to read everything I could get my hands on.
I don't believe in ghosts but of course that doesn't mean they don't exist, they just don't exists for me in my present awareness.
And, just in case this thread might head down that road, I would like to point out that spiritualism (talking to dead people) and spirituality (beyond religion) are two different things.
I had all those big-life questions too. Then it came to me......
Perhaps the answer is that there is no answer.
We do the very best we can with what we have and what we know.
Please don't shoot the messenger.
Take care.
PS.
Nothing doesn’t exist, everything exists. Even in space there is space they call Dark Matter, it looks like nothing but it isn’t nothing. There’s stuff there they just don’t know what it is yet.
You would never not exist - even if you only live on in the hearts of the people who know you. But there’s more, so much more than we are capable of understanding at this time.