Scared out of control and planning to run away

[Uglyducklin]

I'm fat and disgusting I need to tear the fat off. My friend is angry she says its my fault she feels cornered but I didn't call the police I told the unit and they did what they felt necessary. I hate myself so much. Her mother called and screamed down the phone that I should leave her daughter alone . I just hate myself. She text it was the end she didn't want to be alive how could I ignore it. I'm And hateful. I just don't know I'm so sorry xx

[lottybear]

You did the right thing please don't blame yourself

[Uglyducklin]

Thanks lottybear! I never meant to hurt her. If I need an admission I now have to ask to go elsewhere as I don't want her turning nasty. I only wanted to help. God I'm fat and dirty and disgusting I'm so sorry.

[lottybear]

You have not hurt her you helped her. You have done what anyone would have done. When your friend gets well she will realise that you helped her.
In glad to hear your thinking of going in hospital and getting the treatment you need
X

[Pops.]

I hope that you consider an admission Jess. You did the right thing for your friend too.

[Uglyducklin]

I'm fat and horrid horrid. I don't deserve to breathe. I never meant to hound only to be supportive I wanted her to do the right thing. I deserve to be punished. I made a mistake I really never meant to hurt anyone. I'm disgusting and fat I'm so sorry. If I require an admission I now have to ask to go elsewhere because it has snowballed. I'm fat and I'm scared and I'm hateful friend. I'm so sorry xx

[Gone.]

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Originally Posted by Kismet.

I hope that you consider an admission Jess. You did the right thing for your friend too.

I agree.

Sometimes we have to do things that mean we hurt someone but it's for their own sake and at some point, your friend will realise that.

What do you mean it has snowballed?

[Uglyducklin]

It's a mess. I'm fat and awful. I only meant to help. Can I pm someone please. I'm sorry. I'm scared x

[Gone.]

Can you talk about it here Jess?

[Uglyducklin]

I'm a bit worried about it being out there. If that makes sense. I will try my best to sort it in my head and post in a bit. Thanks for your support means a lot. I feel so fat and out of control. I'm sorry xx

[Gone.]

Why are you worried about it being out there? Perhaps you could have a think about what you want to say and post it here at some point? We are trying to help you Jess, if you let us in to be supportive!

[offlineforever]

Jess, I'm confused, what do you want out of this thread?

[lottybear]

hello hope ur ok, if u ever want to chat just message me.
x

[Uglyducklin]

Sorry I had an incident occur with a friend I only did to help and I had a message left on my phone by her mother threatening to call the police if I didn't answer. I'm scared and confused I made a genuine mistake but I'm fat and I hate myself for it. I'm mortified by it I'm so sorry I didn't mean to be difficult xx

[offlineforever]

Sorry, i don't understand, you did something to help a friend and now her mum is threatening to call the police?

[lottybear]

her mum cant do that, i think you should just not answer to her, you did nothing wrong,

[Uglyducklin]

I'm really distressed by it my friend messages me saying it was the end and she
Was sorry to put me in this position. I contacted the ward to inform them of my concerns and they sent the police. She is angry and accusing me of harassment I only meant to help. I'm Fat and I hate myself. I'm so sorry. I ruin everything. X

[offlineforever]

Jess, can you please not capitalise the word 'fat' it makes other users uncomfortable.

Her mum can not do anything about harrasment, there is absolutley no evidence of you harrasing your friend. You just tried to help her. Also, she has no evidence of harrasment so I have no idea how the police can do anything about it.

[Pops.]

You have nothing to worry about, Jess. You know you haven't harassed anybody and that is all that matters. You need to get back to what is important right now lovely, concentrating on YOU and your own health.

[Uglyducklin]

I'm sorry I slipped up I was upset and did it by mistake will edit feel very out of control and scared I'm sorry xx