Grow up.
Stop lying.
Get some perspective.
If you're sick see a doctor.
Talk to a professional.
Then come back and realise how much time and effort people have put in to supporting you. If you're honest and realistic about what's going on, people will help you, but all you're doing at the moment is pissing people off and pushing them away.
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Make us all feel wonderful. We'll never forget."
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Oy don't be horrible to freak angel shes's trying to help you!
And what did the doctors say? Did you tell them youd had an energy drink or if not what did they think caused it.
Im too tired to listen.
Im too old to believe
All these childish stories
There is no such thing as Faith&Trust&Pixiedust
Happiness can be found in the darkest of places.
If only one remembers to to turn on the light.
Oy don't be horrible to freak angel shes's trying to help you!
And what did the doctors say? Did you tell them youd had an energy drink or if not what did they think caused it.
yeah i told them
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
stay away from caffine, then they asked me to go outside while they spoke to my mum
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
no, i asked her but she said it doesnt metter, seemed upset
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Ok here is what you want then Ashlee I am a horrible person! I want to give you the benefit of the doubt and I'm asking you some pretty easy and simple questions and I just get it thrown back in my face. I want to believe you but when you only give little bits of info that don't add up it's hard to believe. I won't respond anymore to you since obviously I'm a hurtful piece of crap to you. I wish you luck but on the path your on right now, I just don't know. Good luck and take care.
Is there some meaning to this life?What purpose lies behind the strife?
Whence do we come, where are we bound? These cold questions echo and resound through each day, each lonely night.
We long to find the splendid light that will cast a revelatory beam
upon the meaning of the human dream.
If you ever need anything I am only a message away
Look, I'm not trying to pick your story apart, but they wouldn't make you go outside if they wanted to talk to your mum, they'd go outside with your mum.
I've recently been in hospital and they never once asked me to leave whilst they chatted to other professionals/my family and friends.
Your story is starting to unravel more and more, so I'd like to suggest that you quit while you're 'ahead', delete this thread and start again, letting people know the real problem, however big or small and stop escalating things to unrealistic levels.
Put simply, cut the crap and let people help you. Start with honesty.
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Make us all feel wonderful. We'll never forget."
When I have been to A&E for heart related issues, relating to anorexia - and I also have to avoid caffeine etc - they have never, ever just done a BP and pulse check. They would have had to carry out an ECG to see what was actually going on, they cannot assess the different waves, electrical shiz etc by a finger pulse thingy.
I am trying so hard to maintain some sense of calm here Ashleigh because I DO think you are a 15 year old girl and I DO think you need support, however, I am really, really unconvinced about this and I'd really appreciate it if you could tell us the truth. There are also LOTS of questions that you haven't bothered to answer, yet you were looking at the thread?
-“And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom.” Anais Nin-
Allie, Mutt, Great Grandma, Hope and Humbug. I love you and miss you all. xx
I made it to page 30-something... I couldn't read anymore... I'm so confused and lost. Though I suppose this did help me keep from hurting myself by distracting me! So Thank you for that!
1. I don't know why I'm bothering to post, as all you seem to do is ignore us or be incredibly rude back.
2. It is impossible that you went to A&E for heart issues and didn't have an ECG and bloods at the very least, and that, along with triage and waiting times, would take more than 4 hours.
3. Your parents/school will find out about all of this eventually whether you like it or not, so
it's better you tell them now.
4. You're 15. Sean is 15. He can't help you.
5. Your attachment is one-sided. He will move on and probably move away. And what will you have then?
First, I have reported your thread as breaking rules, being triggering, lying, and lying in order to make other people feel bad about themselves. I hope it gets shut down.
Second, I work in the ER as my full time job. I know what the procedures are like, no matter how small your town or how private the hospital is. You are lying about your hospital visit, from what they did, to how they informed your mother, to how you were so quickly released.
Third, I used to your age, with access to the internet. I did the same thing as you, by lying for attention and then thinking that people really believed it. I realize now that other people are really smart. They know when you're lying. They just know.
Personally, I didn't start recovering until I could stop feeding off other people's internet attention. When I left the online world and rooted myself firmly in the repercussions and values of the real world, I realized my own path to recovery. Consult a real life professional, and be honest. If you lie, they will know, but that's good too. They knew when I did, and it was SO humbling and helpful to have a person say it to my face, in real life.
Finally, I can't wait to talk to you when you're my age, ten years from now. I hope you save this thread and read it later. I used to keep records of my forum posts. I read them about two years ago, laughed, felt really embarrassed, and burned them in a cleansing campfire.
Last edited by bikeonguerrero : 30-01-2013 at 05:42 AM.
Reason: alterations to post
I would re-iterate what has already said about not becoming upset by this thread. Please, please don't let yourselves become upset because, ultimately, it is Ashlee's choice and responsibility in how she chooses to use and respond to the support that she's been given. You are clearly all outstanding people for supporting so brilliantly and please remember that. If anybody does need a place to talk or any support, my PM box is open and also, you can email the RYL Supporters on support@recoveryourlife.com. Your emails will be treated with non-judgementalism, confidentiality and a response will be sent out within 24/48 hours, depending upon how busy things are.
Take care of yourselves.
I'd just like to re-quote this.
Even if Ashlee is lying, a lot of fantastic support has been given in this thread and links that I have taken as a reference for if people are in distressed positions in the future, so thank you for that. You can all know, for yourselves, that you have supported someone, even if it is not the OP. Someone has gained something from this thread and you have supported above and beyond which is more than a lot of people would do, so know that you are good, kind people. Please take care of yourselves.
Ashlee, if you're telling the truth I'm really very sorry - but I have no idea, on top of anything else, why your sister would, on hearing that you'd been taken to hospital, immediately go on to your laptop, which I assume is your personal property, find RYL quite by chance, then find your thread, again quite by chance , and then proceed to lambast the members for something which is outside our control.
It's really upsetting me, this - RYL is a very supportive community and I just want you to appreciate that.
there is no way you could have hidden your sh marks if you went in for a heart condition, as they would have done an ECG and that involves having loads of stickers stuck on your chest and arms, so you would have had to take your top off, I even had to take my binder off the other week to have one done even though it made me incredibly uncomfortable.
I really think you are lying, which really isn't fair on everyone here who has tried to support you. The majority of us here suffer with mental health problems hence why we are on this site, so to call everyone sick and not be grateful for the support you are getting is really unfair and selfish of you.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
Ashlee, I sincerely hope that as you say, you read everyone's replies, and that when you're a little older you will remember all the fantastic advice given here, and take it.
We really all just wanted to support you.
If you ever need some help just read back on this thread - I hope you find it useful.
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