I hope that she is alright and comes thru alright. As a side note since obviously ashlee has been having problems turning to someone for help and since your here you now obviously know about her problems, could you help her talk to your parents or an adult about her SH and what not. I think it could be really beneficial to her to have someone like you offer her the help she needs. Please give her my best for a speedy recovery.
Is there some meaning to this life?What purpose lies behind the strife?
Whence do we come, where are we bound? These cold questions echo and resound through each day, each lonely night.
We long to find the splendid light that will cast a revelatory beam
upon the meaning of the human dream.
If you ever need anything I am only a message away
Ok, NOW I'm upset. I rooted for you, genuinely sympathized with your boy problems, tried to convince others that you were not lying. I even wrote a love poem for you to send to Sean! And now you lie to our faces in a blatantly obvious way and show your true character. I'm trying not to be angry because I used to be similar when I was a young teenager...
but...
But...
ARRRRGH!!
WHY are you doing this?! You've had sooo much support and help and we really do want to see you get better but this?
Back in the day I used to do a lot of the things I'm seeing in this thread; namely I would see a 'challenge' who was not engaging, but wanted support and would aim to 'succeed' in establishing and gaining a relationship with that person. I wanted to help them, but it was also a 'kick' for me and it allowed me to feel like I had helped someone. I see a lot of similar things going on in this thread because there is clearly a distressed person, who is not engaging, but does appear to want something from here. I've very rarely seen anyone get the kind of support given on this thread, for someone who is not responsive to it; Ashlee is the ultimate 'challenge'. I guess what I'm saying is, for those of you still replying, please do think of yourself and be aware of yourself because situations like this can be very damaging to you, whether you 'succeed' or not, whether you form a bond or not. You're all very kind hearted and generous people to be offering so much, for so little in return and that's to be admired. Just please be careful and remember to look after yourselves and look at the reasons for replying too (which may or may not be anything at all related to what I've posted here).
Ashlee, I think you probably don't realise how lucky you genuinely are with this thread and the amount of people who have shown you care. I urge you to think about what you want from this thread, and the people on who are taking the time and care to reply to you. Think about what you need is, and how it can be met by these people. And then work with them.
I wanted to re-quote this because I think that it is incredibly helpful.
I would re-iterate what has already said about not becoming upset by this thread. Please, please don't let yourselves become upset because, ultimately, it is Ashlee's choice and responsibility in how she chooses to use and respond to the support that she's been given. You are clearly all outstanding people for supporting so brilliantly and please remember that. If anybody does need a place to talk or any support, my PM box is open and also, you can email the RYL Supporters on support@recoveryourlife.com. Your emails will be treated with non-judgementalism, confidentiality and a response will be sent out within 24/48 hours, depending upon how busy things are.
I wanted to re-quote this because I think that it is incredibly helpful.
I would re-iterate what has already said about not becoming upset by this thread. Please, please don't let yourselves become upset because, ultimately, it is Ashlee's choice and responsibility in how she chooses to use and respond to the support that she's been given. You are clearly all outstanding people for supporting so brilliantly and please remember that. If anybody does need a place to talk or any support, my PM box is open and also, you can email the RYL Supporters on support@recoveryourlife.com. Your emails will be treated with non-judgementalism, confidentiality and a response will be sent out within 24/48 hours, depending upon how busy things are.
Ashleigh's sister/Ashlee, I hope you are ok, but you have to realise we are not responsible for your actions at all, so blaming us will get you nowhere.
You have recieved 46 pages of support and advice to help you, we have looked up contacts for you to seek help, and you continually ignore it and moan about your life.
We have tried to help, apart from that we can do nothing more.
If you really are in hospital, I do hope you are getting the support you need.
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
I'm sorry, but I do not believe any of this.
Why does your sister type exactly the same as you? How would she get in your account in the first place? How come you've never mentioned her before? You have a heart condition now too? How can you be in and out of hospital in less than a day for something as serious as that? Why didn't the doctors mention anything about your scars or anorexia?
Ashlee, I truly think you just want attention, perhaps because you are missing it in your life. Maybe you feel unloved. Is that why you keep bumping this thread? Is that why you cling so hard to Sean?
Do you agree?
Please reply to all the advice and messages people have left you and stop making up silly lies to make others feel bad. I apologise if you are genuine here, but I'm highly doubting half of the things you have said.
You have been given pages and pages of advice - more than I have ever received from all of my threads put together.
Take it. I truly think this thread should be locked...
Last edited by Eccentrics : 29-01-2013 at 05:16 PM.
You haven't ever mentioned a sister before.... You've mentioned an uncle who asked if you wanted some razor blades, you've mentioned a dad who has tried to kill you, and a mum who has committed suicide.
Why do you feel the need to lie Ashleigh? You said before that you don't know the reasons why you lie, but I think it's an important thing to look in too. Did you want us to feel guilty, create more posts, write messages to make you feel better about yourself....? There is a reason for everything, but sometimes we have to work to find it out - I think it's important for you to work at finding out why you lie because it is going to impact on your life if you carry on.
-“And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom.” Anais Nin-
Allie, Mutt, Great Grandma, Hope and Humbug. I love you and miss you all. xx
Why does your sister type exactly the same as you? - how am i supossed to know
How would she get in your account in the first place? - its always loged in on my laptop
How come you've never mentioned her before? - why would i mention my sister. You have a heart condition now too? - i mentiond it at the beginning of this thread or my old one that got laocked. How can you be in and out of hospital in less than a day for something as serious as that? - they just wanted to moneter my heart rate and make sure i wouldnt pass out. Why didn't the doctors mention anything about your scars or anorexia? - i wear a glove on my arm, they cant tell about anarexia cos i dont show cos im not stick thin as i eat i just have times when i stop (like a relaps) but ill start again - the last time i had one sean was the one that got me to start eating againg only he didnt know it was a relaps
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Also, there is less than 4 hours between 'sister' and 'you' posting.... I very much doubt that they would have triaged, seen you, set up the checks, monitored you and discharged you within that time.... Obviously adding on the travel time there and back - and the fact that you'd have to have come in and out of your house....? The drink would still be in your system too, so I think they'd monitor you for longer if it could be dangerous?
Also, why did your 'sister' say this was our fault?
-“And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom.” Anais Nin-
Allie, Mutt, Great Grandma, Hope and Humbug. I love you and miss you all. xx
We have really tried to support you - and I think you really do need to tell the truth because people were very understanding with your previous lies - if it happens over and over people aren't going to respond to that so well.
-“And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom.” Anais Nin-
Allie, Mutt, Great Grandma, Hope and Humbug. I love you and miss you all. xx
i dunno, shes gone again now, meybe its cuz some of you are being mean or she doesnt like what shes reading
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Like, I'm literally a hundred miles away from confused now and am slightly losing the will the live.
Do you know what, I daren't post a thread because I am SO scared I won't get any replies. I have had a CRAP day and everything is falling apart and yet I am STILL replying because believe it or not, I care about your wellbeing. HOW-FRICKING-EVER.... I do NOT have the tolerance levels required to try to work out your nonsensical rambling shiz right now.
-“And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom.” Anais Nin-
Allie, Mutt, Great Grandma, Hope and Humbug. I love you and miss you all. xx
I really doubt you were in and out in 4 hours. I'm sorry but my mum was rushed in because of her gall bladder last year and she was in the entire day and the only reason she wasn't in over night was because she discharged herself. It was pretty serious but heart conditions are worse.
I also wonder why your sister just thought she'd go onto a site that is logged on your laptop and start having a go at people she doesn't know and has never spoken to. If it's an existing heart condition then it's no ones fault. YOU are responsible for your actions and no one on here should be made to feel responsible for your health or you being in hospital or anything. It's very unfair especially since most if not all of us struggle with mental health issues ourselves so I'm sorry but for someone to come on here and call the people in this thread sick and to try and appoint blame? THAT is sick
I'm sorry but I'm really struggling to believe any of this any more.
Ashlee, we are not the ones being mean here. We are trying to help you and you are just not accepting it.
What more can we do for you?!
Tell me, what do you want us to do?!
We have offered all the advice we can, and lying to make us feel guilty will really just anger everyone more. Please stop being immature and take the advice, or say thankyou despite the fact you wont take it.
Ashlee I'm gonna say what I did before, obviously the way your sister tried to blame us and her being on the site, she knows about your SH. Can you get her to help you tell an adult like your patents or another family member. Could you get her to go with you to the doctors since you are screed and she obviously knows about your SH. She's your sister and if she came on here blaming us for what we've said she obviously cares about you so why wouldnt she try to help you? There is somebody in your life ou can turn to besides sean since you talked to her, I would suggest using the support you have around you. Please take care.
Is there some meaning to this life?What purpose lies behind the strife?
Whence do we come, where are we bound? These cold questions echo and resound through each day, each lonely night.
We long to find the splendid light that will cast a revelatory beam
upon the meaning of the human dream.
If you ever need anything I am only a message away
