What about Sean? i love himmmm. could never lie about him or hurt him or see him hurt as all of thet hirts me
Do your teachers know that you hurt yourself? 1
Do the people at school know you hurt yourself? yess
Did your dad try to kill your when you were 2/3? yess
It was brave to give the reply you gave above ty
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Ashlee, I have to say, I am happy to see you responding to posts in a more constructive manner.
I will try and say this in the simplest way possible because I know you struggle to read things, but if you don't understand what I say, just say you don't and I will try to reword it.
How would you feel about talking to an adult in Harrogate about all of this? You do genuinley seem to be struggling and I feel that you might need the support to get over these issues.
Ashlee, I have to say, I am happy to see you responding to posts in a more constructive manner.
I will try and say this in the simplest way possible because I know you struggle to read things, but if you don't understand what I say, just say you don't and I will try to reword it.
How would you feel about talking to an adult in Harrogate about all of this? You do genuinley seem to be struggling and I feel that you might need the support to get over these issues.
depends, do anyone of you live neer bye
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
I have been following this thread but not saying much because I didn't want to engage in you lying. I understand as a 15 year old girl it is hard and we do things sometimes that make no sense. We lie to make a story more interesting, we embellish things sometimes to get more attention, as said before it's not always for the wrong reasons. I'm glad you've come out and told the truth. Maybe if you start from the beginning tell your story again, the truth maybe we can help a bit more. :) I hope you are well, take care and continue trying to get help (but I do recommend talking to an adult still)
Is there some meaning to this life?What purpose lies behind the strife?
Whence do we come, where are we bound? These cold questions echo and resound through each day, each lonely night.
We long to find the splendid light that will cast a revelatory beam
upon the meaning of the human dream.
If you ever need anything I am only a message away
Ashlee I don't mean someone like us, I mean like a professional person.
ohhh, then no, theres noone neer bye that i have acces to
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Why do you not feel able to explain why you lied Ashlee?
i tned to do alot of things that i dont understand myself
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Could you not go to your GP and explain that you feel you need support? You could write it down and give it to them. It sounds to me like you would benefit from it.
does anyone want to add the real me on facebook, might help yous to understand me abit better buy the things i put on
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
even tho i cannt put my self harming stuff on their
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Ash, I completely understand that you want to have contact with us and talk to us, but we cannot be a replacement for proper support. I truly think you need to try to access proper support in real life, where you live.
-“And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom.” Anais Nin-
Allie, Mutt, Great Grandma, Hope and Humbug. I love you and miss you all. xx
Ashleigh,if you contact one of the organisations from the link,you don't have to give your real name,as long as you go and talk to.someone that can help is all that matters x
Ashleigh,if you contact one of the organisations from the link,you don't have to give your real name,as long as you go and talk to.someone that can help is all that matters x
i cant
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Ashlee, has your teacher done anything in order to support you?
no, she ust tells people to leave me allone in the lesson
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
A big, BIG well done for telling the truth Ashlee! I think I speak for everyone when I say we are all so proud of you. Very brave :)
As said above I think you really need to speak to a professional hun. I know it probably sounds scary and since you are young like me, out of your control, but you do have control over this. You have a few options:
. Tell your Mum that you are struggling with the anorexia again
. Talk to the teacher who knows and admit you'd like some help
. Go to the doctors by yourself
I know it's very hard, and if you struggle to say could you maybe write it down and show whoever it is you want to tell?
I still think that the reason you love Sean and lied about all those things is because you want somebody to care about you... I think maybe since your Dad kicked you out you have felt a little unloved, and so you crave for somebody to love and care for you. Does this sound about right Ashlee?
