Ashlee, he isn't an object or thing that you own, he is a human like you.
Anyway, I'll ask again, what do you want from this thread?
i know hes not a thing,
help
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Ashlee, maybe when you're ready to accept all of this advice you could come back and reread the whole thread? Because people are just going round in circles and none of it is going in at all. So much valuable advice here.
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on my tumblr a week ago i uploaded 'if you, only you asked me to stop self harming, i would
i would do anything for him
i can do anything aslong as i have him
Recovering from selfharm or an eating disorder is not that easy.
Really, it isn't. You need to get professional help. He will not be able to cure you.
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they say its normal and ill just grow out of it cos they think its something to do with my age or something
everyone's world doesnt revolve around him, but my world does
If you have been diagnosed and seen by a doctor you have proof there that it's not your age, especially if you have had it since you were a child... You need to tell them.
Your world should not revolve around him. In a few years you wont even know he who is. You need to move on, study in school and build a life for yourself. What will you do in a few years time when you have no job and wasted all this time obsessing over a boy you've forgotten?
If you can magically stop having an eating disorder and magically stop self harming if you get him - then it all becomes rather questionable in my mind.... It is also manipulative and unfair.
The sad thing is that if you don't start listening to what is being said to you, I can actually imagine you carrying this on and being arrested for harassment in a few years....
-“And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom.” Anais Nin-
Allie, Mutt, Great Grandma, Hope and Humbug. I love you and miss you all. xx
Ashlee, what about having professional help alongside these feelings you have got about Sean? Our opinions of your relationship with this boy don't matter, at the end of the day, because this is your life and how you deal with it is up to you but, as you can't seem to get over Sean and you don't want to, why not access professional help as well as continuing with your obsession with Sean?
Why do your parents think that this is just a phase? Can you explain a little bit more to them about how you feel? Okay, so they may still believe that this is just a phase but tell them that you need their help to get out of it. At the end of the day, they are your parents and they care about you. Perhaps they juts don't understand how difficult you're finding everything.
Why do your parents think that this is just a phase? Can you explain a little bit more to them about how you feel? Okay, so they may still believe that this is just a phase but tell them that you need their help to get out of it. At the end of the day, they are your parents and they care about you. Perhaps they juts don't understand how difficult you're finding everything.
i was first diagnosed when i was 6-7 and got better at 8-9 and i was fine for ages, eating proberly and every thing maybe a bit too much.
when i was 11-12, just got into high school people started calling me fat but i ignored them, when i was 12 i looked in the mirror and my stumach -fat, i asked my mate if i had always had it, she said yeahh, id never noticed it b4 as i never really cared b4,
ever since my stumack is getting bigger, its not flab, it just looks like im pregenant but not majorly pregnant. when i was 13 my eating habbits changed, some times i would eat, somtimes i wouldnt,
as some of you know i have mentiond b4 about me not eating and sean being their trying to get me to eat....
after he found out i hadent eaten for 2 days he took me to speak to one of the lunchtime supervisers at school and she said ' you have to eat some thing, you cant not eat, are you worried about your weight' me being in denail i said no. then after sean said ' you dont need to loose weight, your not fat, your skinneyer than me' (obviously not when hes a twig and im not) but seriously that is the sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me. even tho i know its not true it gave me a massive confidance boost knowing that he was their for meeeeeee, whe i started eating again he disapapered and started ignoring me which is when i started eating bad and self harming. but now that i have sort of got him back, i feel sooo much better, hes talking and everything. since hes been talking to me i havent cut in a week and im eating properly again
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
and i have only just realised how much i have written - wow
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Well done for your answer, Ashlee. That was very honest of you to write.
I think that the ages of 11/12/13, as you get into your teens, can make you progressively self-conscious. You feel more aware of your body, what you look like to other people, how you should act, what you should wear... it sounds as though this is a feeling that really took hold of you. You were called fat by others and, consequently, took control of your eating habits. This isn't uncommon, Ashlee, and you're not alone in struggling with this.
Perhaps you could go back to the lunchtime supervisor that Sean took you to and tell her that, in fact, you are worried about your weight. It sounds as though you're not in denial now and that's positive. It's better to acknowledge you have a problem so that you can fight it head on, rather than hiding behind other things.
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It sounds as though you're not in denial now and that's positive. .
??? what does this mean
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
You said that you had told a lunchtime supervisor that you weren't worried about your weight because you were in denial. I was saying that, from your post, it sounded as if you weren't in denial anymore and that you realised you had a problem. That knowledge can make the problem easier to deal with because you know you have one now, so it's easier to talk about. How would you feel about approaching the lunchtime supervisor?
You said that you had told a lunchtime supervisor that you weren't worried about your weight because you were in denial. I was saying that, from your post, it sounded as if you weren't in denial anymore and that you realised you had a problem. That knowledge can make the problem easier to deal with because you know you have one now, so it's easier to talk about. How would you feel about approaching the lunchtime supervisor?
ohh now iget it, i didnt reconise the word denial so they y i was confused
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
ill admit it to sean first then he'll help me,and tell others
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
just realised i havent seen that lunch time superviser in ages meybe shes retierd cos shes like realy really old
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
