i feel a whole lot better about myself when i talk to him and when he talks to me
i just wanna tell someone about it and he wont exacly lie to me
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
It seems as soon as people give you advice that you can't argue with because it makes sense - you start off on another thing and argue with people. Perhaps your life feels so empty that you NEED to keep this thread alive and it doesn't matter whether people reply with one word answers or type a paragraph because you don't care about that, you just want your thread to keep going because it makes you feel important?
-“And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom.” Anais Nin-
Allie, Mutt, Great Grandma, Hope and Humbug. I love you and miss you all. xx
Ashless, you can tell whoever you want whatever you want but please know just telling a friend won't magically make it all better, it won't just go away.
It seems as soon as people give you advice that you can't argue with because it makes sense - you start off on another thing and argue with people. Perhaps your life feels so empty that you NEED to keep this thread alive and it doesn't matter whether people reply with one word answers or type a paragraph because you don't care about that, you just want your thread to keep going because it makes you feel important?
ohh so im an attention seeker now too
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Ashless, you can tell whoever you want whatever you want but please know just telling a friend won't magically make it all better, it won't just go away.
You do still need to get some pro help.
it will make me feel better
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
My advice 'SPEAK TO AN ADULT IN REAL LIFE!!!!!!! STOP BEING FIXATED ON AN OBSESSION THAT IS UNHEALTHY. HE DOES NOT WANT TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU - HE DIDN'T CARE THAT YOU CUT, I DOUBT HE'LL GIVE A SH*T ABOUT YOUR EATING DISORDER EITHER. HE IS A TEENAGE BOY AND YOU ARE A DELUDED TEENAGE GIRL THAT IS GOING TO GET IN TROUBLE IF YOU CARRY ON AS YOU ARE.'
There. I said it.
-“And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom.” Anais Nin-
Allie, Mutt, Great Grandma, Hope and Humbug. I love you and miss you all. xx
My advice 'SPEAK TO AN ADULT IN REAL LIFE!!!!!!! STOP BEING FIXATED ON AN OBSESSION THAT IS UNHEALTHY. HE DOES NOT WANT TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU - HE DIDN'T CARE THAT YOU CUT, I DOUBT HE'LL GIVE A SH*T ABOUT YOUR EATING DISORDER EITHER. HE IS A TEENAGE BOY AND YOU ARE A DELUDED TEENAGE GIRL THAT IS GOING TO GET IN TROUBLE IF YOU CARRY ON AS YOU ARE.'
There. I said it.
hes changed back
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Maybe for a short amount of time it will, it's always good to get stuff out in the open but what i'm saying is you still need to talk to a grown up like a teacher, doctor, parent, a big person.
My advice 'SPEAK TO AN ADULT IN REAL LIFE!!!!!!! STOP BEING FIXATED ON AN OBSESSION THAT IS UNHEALTHY. HE DOES NOT WANT TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU - HE DIDN'T CARE THAT YOU CUT, I DOUBT HE'LL GIVE A SH*T ABOUT YOUR EATING DISORDER EITHER. HE IS A TEENAGE BOY AND YOU ARE A DELUDED TEENAGE GIRL THAT IS GOING TO GET IN TROUBLE IF YOU CARRY ON AS YOU ARE.'
There. I said it.
Word! Wise, wise words!
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hes changed back
But for how long? C'mon, get real a bit.
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I think you're gaining the attention you want from people in real life through this site.
Which isn't healthy.
Look at what people are saying to you - if you want advice listen to it and respond. You respond to negative parts so that you can keep an argument going. I have had so many fricking threads on these boards over the last FIVE years and I have never EVER had as many people care about me. I have been SUICIDAL and in such a state, not knowing where to turn, being beyond terrified and my thread has slipped on the page - do you know how grateful I would have been for just a few replies? Yet you have had hundreds and you can't even bother to reply/listen/take advice.
Yes, perhaps you feel like you are the only person in the world right now with an issue because it feels all encompassing to you - but there are ways that you can help yourself Ashlee, and you are CHOOSING not too. People are going to become frustrated with you and yes, I do think this is more about attention than anything else because you have had SO much support but you ignore it, so that clearly isn't what you want....
-“And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom.” Anais Nin-
Allie, Mutt, Great Grandma, Hope and Humbug. I love you and miss you all. xx
Okay, so if he's changed back and it's all fine we don't need to talk to him anymore do we, you don't need to cut over him. The world is fine.
& Yes, I have no doubt I will get PR and in trouble for my posts, and yes, I probably do look like a complete cow but enough is enough. Sometimes people need a wake up call - take this as your wake up call Ashlee.
You need to live your life for you. You need to get yourself some support from AN ADULT, or a service that can provide the support you need. I very much doubt that a teenage boy is going to be able to be enough for you to recover from an eating disorder and self harm - if it worked like that we wouldn't have services in place. Stop obsessing, rumination, overthinking and wallowing - get on with your life and get help so that you can move forwards. You are going to lead a very, very sad and lonely life if you continue to behave in the way that you are. You need to speak to an adult that can provide you with the support you need, because this forum/Shaun will not be enough. More than anything you have to be willing to take a step in the right direction by speaking to someone. It would seem to me that if you've had an eating disorder since you were a child people are already aware that you find some things difficult, so it isn't going to be a massive shock to them. People care about you and want the best for you - stop throwing it back in their faces and talk to someone, get yourself some support, get yourself sorted and go and live a healthy and happy life.
-“And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom.” Anais Nin-
Allie, Mutt, Great Grandma, Hope and Humbug. I love you and miss you all. xx
Okay, so if he's changed back and it's all fine we don't need to talk to him anymore do we, you don't need to cut over him. The world is fine.
& Yes, I have no doubt I will get PR and in trouble for my posts, and yes, I probably do look like a complete cow but enough is enough. Sometimes people need a wake up call - take this as your wake up call Ashlee.
You need to live your life for you. You need to get yourself some support from AN ADULT, or a service that can provide the support you need. I very much doubt that a teenage boy is going to be able to be enough for you to recover from an eating disorder and self harm - if it worked like that we wouldn't have services in place. Stop obsessing, rumination, overthinking and wallowing - get on with your life and get help so that you can move forwards. You are going to lead a very, very sad and lonely life if you continue to behave in the way that you are. You need to speak to an adult that can provide you with the support you need, because this forum/Shaun will not be enough. More than anything you have to be willing to take a step in the right direction by speaking to someone. It would seem to me that if you've had an eating disorder since you were a child people are already aware that you find some things difficult, so it isn't going to be a massive shock to them. People care about you and want the best for you - stop throwing it back in their faces and talk to someone, get yourself some support, get yourself sorted and go and live a healthy and happy life.
Okay, so if he's changed back and it's all fine we don't need to talk to him anymore do we, you don't need to cut over him. The world is fine.
& Yes, I have no doubt I will get PR and in trouble for my posts, and yes, I probably do look like a complete cow but enough is enough. Sometimes people need a wake up call - take this as your wake up call Ashlee.
You need to live your life for you. You need to get yourself some support from AN ADULT, or a service that can provide the support you need. I very much doubt that a teenage boy is going to be able to be enough for you to recover from an eating disorder and self harm - if it worked like that we wouldn't have services in place. Stop obsessing, rumination, overthinking and wallowing - get on with your life and get help so that you can move forwards. You are going to lead a very, very sad and lonely life if you continue to behave in the way that you are. You need to speak to an adult that can provide you with the support you need, because this forum/Shaun will not be enough. More than anything you have to be willing to take a step in the right direction by speaking to someone. It would seem to me that if you've had an eating disorder since you were a child people are already aware that you find some things difficult, so it isn't going to be a massive shock to them. People care about you and want the best for you - stop throwing it back in their faces and talk to someone, get yourself some support, get yourself sorted and go and live a healthy and happy life.
Wise, wise words! You have said what I have been thinking.
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I very much doubt that a teenage boy is going to be able to be enough for you to recover from an eating disorder and self harm some support,
on my tumblr a week ago i uploaded 'if you, only you asked me to stop self harming, i would
i would do anything for him
i can do anything aslong as i have him
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Ashlee, can you tell your parents you are still struggling with the eating disorder?
The world doesn't revolve around Sean. He cannot help you.
they say its normal and ill just grow out of it cos they think its something to do with my age or something
everyone's world doesnt revolve around him, but my world does
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
I don;t understand why posted this tbh, it has nothing to do with anything anyone has said to you.
Anyway, you don't have him do you?
i have him more than i did wich is better than nothing
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
