I had a FWB and a few weeks ago I called that off to just be friends. I went around earlier to give him his Christmas Present.
He pulled me over and started kissing me. I said no. He kept going and I didn't kiss back and then he moved down and started biting my neck and boobs and that was when I dissociated. He knows what I am like when I dissociate. He kept going.
When I dissociate, my voice doesn't work. I can never say anything. He then put himself in me. Without protection.
The shops are all closed. We don't have 24/7 Pharmacy's here. I have to go tomorrow, the chance of it working will decrease. I will have to tell the clinic what happened. I do need to tell them...... I think I need to.
I don't know what to do. I am back on breaking point.
I TRUSTED HIM!!!
He knew about my past!
You start life with a clean slate. Then you begin to make your mark. You face decisions, make choices. You keep moving forward. But sooner or later there comes a time where you look back over where you have been and wonder who you really are.
*safe hugs if you want them*
Klippie, I am so sorry this happened to you :( I think it would be best to tell the clinic what happened, so they can help you in the best way they can. I don't have much good advice at the moment, but I'm here if you need to talk about it <3
I just can't believe it happened. I trusted him. He was my friend. He took advantage of the fact I dissociate!!!
And the jerk sperm is still in me!!!
You start life with a clean slate. Then you begin to make your mark. You face decisions, make choices. You keep moving forward. But sooner or later there comes a time where you look back over where you have been and wonder who you really are.
I know you feel really bad about this, it must be horrible, i too dissociate and i couldnt imagine that happening to me. you sound quite angry, its good that you are getting all your emotions out in the open, its good to feel angry at him, it was his fault and not yours.
you have 3 days until the morning after pill doesnt work, is there anychance you could go soemtime tomorrow before the shops all close for christmas?
Okay have taken the pill. The jerk sperm will leave now.
Why does this **** happen. Why do people do this!!
I want the suffering to end
You start life with a clean slate. Then you begin to make your mark. You face decisions, make choices. You keep moving forward. But sooner or later there comes a time where you look back over where you have been and wonder who you really are.
its good that you managed to find the pill *hugs* is there anyone you can talk to like a counsellor etc where you can vent about what happened? we are all here to support you hun, i have been what you have been through, and trust me, it does end at some point, it may not be the best reply ever, but its reality, it will end hun x x
I am going to go back to therapy. Give it another try.
Atm I am trying to work out if I should report it or not...
You start life with a clean slate. Then you begin to make your mark. You face decisions, make choices. You keep moving forward. But sooner or later there comes a time where you look back over where you have been and wonder who you really are.
at the end of the day, the right thing to do would be to report it to the police, however, that in itself takes some doing and you have to do it when you are completely ready. i think the fact that you are even considering this is completley brave thing to do!
i think it would be for the best, he should be punished for whst he has done, but it is your decision, i hope you are ok :)
I'm sorry I don't have much words for you,
But I just hope that you do what you feel is best for you right now. If I were in your shoes, I would attempt to report what happened to authorities. But I understand how draining it can be emotionally, so do what you feel is the best thing for you now.
Please take care of yourself.
I tried to ring the Rape Crisis line earlier but got voicemail. I HATE voicemail. So I sent an email.
I can't keep control of my emotions. I am just angry and feel dirty and hating myself but know it wasn't my fault. I just feel disgusting.
*sits popping bubblewrap and takes safe hugs*
You start life with a clean slate. Then you begin to make your mark. You face decisions, make choices. You keep moving forward. But sooner or later there comes a time where you look back over where you have been and wonder who you really are.
if you keep getting put to voicemail, RAINN do a good online chat service that is particularly useful, you can talk to online counsellors, it might help you get things out x
You start life with a clean slate. Then you begin to make your mark. You face decisions, make choices. You keep moving forward. But sooner or later there comes a time where you look back over where you have been and wonder who you really are.
I don't see the point on carrying on if I'll just get hurt again and again
I just want it to all end
You start life with a clean slate. Then you begin to make your mark. You face decisions, make choices. You keep moving forward. But sooner or later there comes a time where you look back over where you have been and wonder who you really are.
im so sorry you are struggling so much klip, it must be so hard for you, especially around christmas time, if you think you are going to do something to hurt yourself please tell someone hun,
You start life with a clean slate. Then you begin to make your mark. You face decisions, make choices. You keep moving forward. But sooner or later there comes a time where you look back over where you have been and wonder who you really are.
I feel like I have nobody. I mean, I have heaps of online friends, but they aren't here.
I have a few friends in real life. But they don't need my ****. and one doesn't care. and one just doesn't even talk to me unless he is lonely.
I dunno.
I need somebody.
But I don't want to rely on anyone.
You start life with a clean slate. Then you begin to make your mark. You face decisions, make choices. You keep moving forward. But sooner or later there comes a time where you look back over where you have been and wonder who you really are.
I have a medical on Thursday to check for STI's and pregnancy and all that stuff and then will begin therapy.
Just not coping.
You start life with a clean slate. Then you begin to make your mark. You face decisions, make choices. You keep moving forward. But sooner or later there comes a time where you look back over where you have been and wonder who you really are.
Oh Klippy, I've only just seen this. I'm so sorry to hear what happened. I really hope the medical goes okay on Thursday. Have you told anyone what happened?
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
