Personal Piece- Contains upsetting material - Dear Daddy,

[bugg]

background info:my parents got divorced about 2 years ago because my dad was extreamly abusive. my father remarred and he 3 new kids and a new wife now. i live with my mom not them

"Dear daddy,
im going to start out by asking what did i do wrong? you never call anymore. i feel abandoned because you dont call, come see me, or even seem to want me anymore. i wish you would call, i wish you would care. its practically impossable to get a hold of you anymore. i have to pretty much beg for your attention. you have a new family, is that why you forgot about me? i wish i could "cut out the part of me. the part that cares for you. cut out the heart of me, the heart that cares for you." im misrable here with out you. i miss you so much. do you miss me? ...of course not... dad, i wish you cared, i wish you loved me. i cry everynight,wondering what i did wrong. why dont you love me like you love all my brothers and your new wife? why dont you care? )': im sorry im so sorry. all i wanted was your love, affection, aproval, trust, and acceptance. and all you ever did was push me around and make me feel like shiz. i love you dad! why do you hate me? i call, you dont anwser. you sons tell you i called and you dont care, i call and you make up excuses "it doesnt say you called." ,"it never rang","we lost the phone". but when i ask my brothers if you saw my call they say u did but hung it up. well now im done calling you. ill wait for you to miss me. i cant handle this rejection any longer. if you remember you have 3 kids of your very own and you finally love or miss us for just a minute..pick up the phone and call! it would mean the world to me! I love you daddy. i just want to be daddys little girl again. i just want to hear you say "i love you" and mean it. someone asked me if i could have one wish. what would it be? i said"i just want my daddy back"

thats my letter to my dad that i will never send. i just had to get that off my chest. Thanks for reading this. Im sorry its so long. i just have so much to say.

[Sooty]

It's really great that you got this down into words and got it out into the air. These are obviously really strong feelings that you have around your dad and family and I'm glad that you've used creativity and language to channel these feelings into something healthy.

Sophie.x

[bugg]

Hey thanks for reading! It means a lot that someone is reading and commenting. I'm sorry its so long though. Yes i do have really strong feeling for my dad,wish I new why though. I'm too forgiving and it gets me hurt every time. I just had to get it out cuz I feel better when someone else knows too. I don't feel so alone in this when people see my posts or I talk to them. (:

[rubik's cube]

maybe you're better off without him, if he was abusive?

i miss my dad sometimes, and i just have to remember i'm much better off without him.

[Pops.]

I can really relate to a lot of the feelings you have expressed here. Glad you were able to get some of it out of you. I know how confusing and draining it can all be. Take care lovely xxx