Really Nervous

[KnightDream]

I have to see my counselor on Wednesday and I'm really nervous and afraid. Every time I think about it, I really really don't want to go. I'll go anyway because I can't skip things, but I feel like it'll just get worse. I can't quit unless he suggests I do because I can barely talk to him. Last time he scheduled me for next week even though I really didn't want to go and I couldn't tell him that. I'm going to a different college in January so hopefully I can get some help there for free. I just really don't like my counselor right now and I don't have the money to spend on this if it's making me feel much worse. I just wish I had someone I could talk to all the time. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm not sure if anyone can help me on here, but it's worth a try.

[musicmad123]

would it help to kind of write down how you're feeling about the counselling and how you're not finding it helpful? Having something written down is quite often a good way to start a conversation.
It could be that you're just not connecting to that particular counselor, or the type of counselling isn't right for you. Or you aren't ready or willing to let the help in yet.