Ah thanks so much for updating this Sarah.Helen asked me too as well but i have been very slow so im sorry.
Obviously quite concerned about you Hel.i can understand you feeling too weak and emotional to update this yourself like you said.Please try and look after yourself as best you can.
i know you said you have an appointment on Fri at the hospital for your heart and that you guess psych ward or hopefully EDU admission will be sometime after this as Sarah said above.
i really hope it comes soon.It is clear, and has been for some time in my opinion, how critical things really are.
i dont want to lose you and i hope at the very least you can at least work towards stabilisation if not recovery.
i love you [as i know do many others].
We are all very concerned.Wishing you all the best and please keep in touch sweetheart..
xx xx
PS Well done for getting through today and not hurting yourself also.i know the meeting today was scary for you.There is no pressure as i know your not up to it right now but please continue to let us know your safe and how you are when you can.Thinking of you.i hope Friday goes ok and nothing is seriously wrong - obviously things are very concerning.Anyway im gonna shut up.Much loe
i do not always manage to be around but i wish you all the very best - love and luck to you all!
Hope you're OK Helen, and it sounds like hospital may well be what's best for you right now. I hope you're able to make the most of the admission; there is a life beyond this eating disorder.
Helen i would challenge you to give IP/recovery a serious try, what do you have to lose? You can always go back to the ed, but in all honesty if you dont give recovery a go you may not have many more chances at trying... and i dont want you to realise when its too late that you have wasted your life with anorexia.. thats what happened to me some years ago, my heart failed and i had a near death experience (noit like a tunnel as people say but very similar sorta thing) anyway i realised in that moment there was nothing i wouldnt give for another chance and how stupid i was to starve myself to death, its impossible to say, you would have to experience it to know how it felt, but it was incredibly strong feeling. Anyway what has anorexia given you? It just hides your true self and talent from the world, everyone lives there lives around you while you live in a frozen world, You CAN have your life back but as you know in your heart it doesnt lie with more years suffering and starving... being sick is easy, trying to get well, giving it a go is the hardest thing, but its worth a decent try, you can always go back to starving to death but you only have a limited amount of chances to recover when it comes down to it. I say this in honesty not to be cruel, i hope you give recovering a go xxx
You dont need to destroy yourself anymore, we all know you were good at that,
now retire from all that hard work you do
of bringing pain to those sweet eyes and heart
Helen, how are you doing today? I hope that you are in a place where you can get help and you can explore the reasons why you don't feel able to accept help right now. Take care of yourself.
Helen has been texting me but she has said she has been sleeping a lot and I can tell she's feeling quite crap at the moment.
I hope she doesn't mind me saying this, but she is struggling right now, I just hope she sees we all love her and care about her and are here for her, and that IP could be the best chance she has at getting her amazing life back...
Thinking of you loads Helen. I really, really think IP is the best option for you. Please accept the help and use it to get back your life. There are so many people that love and care for you, we don't want to lose you to this disorder.
Much love and cuddles <3
Let us go then you and I, when the evening is spread out against the sky, like a patient etherized upon a table
- T.S. Elliot
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