Graphic - staring at these four walls

fergieferg · 02-09-2012, 04:26 AM

I wonder how I got here. How I got to the point where I hate me. I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror without out thinking who will ever love you ? You can't even love yourself. It all just hurts so bad ! Not just the emotional pain but the physical pain. I have no one to talk too. No one to cry with. No one to offer the hug that is really needed. But NOOOOOOOOOO the people who CLAIM they will help they don't F**K THEM !!! I guess everyone is tired of me and all of my "problems" hell I am tired of me and my "problems". I think everyone thinks I am worthless and don't deserve to have my feelings put into consideration. Because if they did I wouldn't have to put a razor to my skin to and feel that's the only way I could express my feelings. If they did I would of never got abused. My father would of never left out of my life. I wouldn't feel so lonely. I wouldn't feel like there is no point in life. I wouldnt feel like the shit i am feeling like now....this is all too much :'(

Stellata · 02-09-2012, 07:11 AM

There're other ways of expressing difficult feelings - through art/writing/dance/singing/crying. Counselling or therapy can also help, if you can access that.

Brochetta · 02-09-2012, 08:53 AM

Your not worthless and you do deserve to have your feelings put in consideration I've gone trough alot of this and still am just remember that you are important there are people that love you and care about you they are just waiting for you to find them cutting can have strong urges its an addiction but it's never the awnswer you can express feelings to alot of people an I may be one of them f you ever need to vent talk or just ask for advice pm me I'm always here

PassedExpectations · 02-09-2012, 03:44 PM

try not to generalize a couple people's actions to everyone. while it is sad and hurtful that your father left you and that people have abused you, do NOT think that everyone sees you the way that they do. everyone is different. most people aren't going to agree with your father or abusers.

what do you want people to do to help? maybe people are trying to help but not doing it in a way that is helpful for you...