I literally can't stand my own thoughts anymore, i can't vent or let my emotions out, i just want to be dead, I'd rather be dead then live to see another day, that's all i can think about and that's all the voices say to me, is that i should be dead, I honestly think i should be too i keep screwing things up for people and i hate myself for that, i just don't know what to do anymore and i'm having mental breakdowns about it...
stay strong - we all have to stick together. you are a stronger person than you think. you were having these thoughts and you didnt act on them. your thoughts were to post on here. that makes you strong!
life tests us... some are capable to shrug these tests away, others need more help and guidence.... like us.... we need more help and guidence then others around us. this doesnt make us less strong.
try occupying your mind.... write a poem, sing loudly to you fave song!
getting your emotions out:
try punching a pillow.... screaming and shouting at the pillow, pretend you hate it. scream at it telling it all the reasons you hate this pillow.
try an elastic band.... put an elastic band on your wrist and pull at it.... this technique is usually used to prevent SI.
crush ice... take all your anger out, smashing it, crunching it, throwing it....
you may not find this post very useful. i dont know what you have been through or why you feel the way you do, i know that it doesnt help when people say dont worry i understand.... because you end up thinking, nah u dont right?
i dont know how you feel........ but im here for you. stay strong xxxxx jade xxxxx
Hey,
Do you have any professional support at all? If not, maybe it's the time to seek some support. When everything seems to be going wrong sometimes the only way you feel there is a way out is by killing yourself. You need to give yourself a chance get some sort of of a positive a life rather than just giving up.
If you want to talk I'm here just inbox me.
Amy xxx
'Cause I'll always remember you the same.
Oh eyes like wild flowers within demons of change ♥
are there any things that make you feel happy? or that you feel good at? you can't run from unpleasant thoughts, but if you fill your mind with things that you enjoy, the unpleasant thoughts will usually decrease....
this is my magical medicine cabinet. Left to right they contain: courage, hope, calmness, and strength.
The magical part: They NEVER run out, so borrow some any time you want.
I do have professional support, a Psychologist, Therapist and a psychiatrist but talking to them does nothing for me, i take anti depressants daily, they don't work for me, i've been on them for 6 months, I used to be good at art but now my hand is too shaky to even write and i have tried everything i can to try and get my emotions out but i just can't, i'm basically just a emotional bomb and once i go off i won't be here anymore
it will get better... things will be right again. you just have to keep talking to people. we are all here for you, as well as a lot of other people xx
message me if want another person to talk to
I don't know if things ever will be, although i have the suicidal thoughts, i don't act upon them and i don't self harm anymore, because i know no matter what i do nothing will work for me or make things right, i'm just stuck suffering by myself
ok... maybe things won't be entirely ok. i mean, things are never totally ok. the goal here isn't to feel good all the time, that is impossible for anyone. the goal is to feel better than you do at the moment. that is a goal for every day. and it is a goal that you can meet in very small pieces. and eventually you'll feel much better overall.
it is great that you're resisting the suicidal thoughts and holding off from harming. that takes a ton of effort, and you're doing a great job.
this is my magical medicine cabinet. Left to right they contain: courage, hope, calmness, and strength.
The magical part: They NEVER run out, so borrow some any time you want.
Ah... things have never been okay for me, nor can they get better, i relapsed today and i'm shaking, i haven't eaten or slept and i just feel horrible... can someone suggest some distractions for me?... i can't really think for myself nor sanely right now... thanks everyone for your help, i just wish i could be helped and thanks for saying i'm doing a great job but i'm not sure how long it'll last
I want to try one thing that will make me happy, I want to ask the girl that i like out... but i have a really strong feeling that it will fail... i don't know how to ask her out either...
I asked her out, just plainly asked her out, told her how amazing she was and she thanked me but said that i am "too depressing" to be around and that she didn't want to go out with me because of that... now i feel worse then before... it sucks knowing that no matter how much you prepare for a situation you can never be ready for how it actually happens...
ummm... i hate to say it but everything has been going down hill for me, my urges are back stronger then ever and i relapsed, i can't eat, it's probably been 2 days since i've eaten something, my hands are really really shaky and i am just having constant nightmares, I'm having so many suicidal thoughts and absolutely no one wants to be around or near me, i just sit by myself at school and get yelled at by my parents at home... i literally do not want to be living anymore
I'm sorry if nothing I say right now can be of much help, I just wanted to tell you that - although I can appreciate that it really does feel ridiculously impossible right now - things will get better. When you're at your lowest, the only way things can go is up.
Please try not to put too much importance on that girl's reaction; she clearly doesn't know the real you, just the depression, so her response has nothing to do with who you really are as a person. Plus, she doesn't seem to understand or sympathize with your depression, so perhaps seeing her wouldn't have been the best idea right now anyway. I know it's a lot harder than I'm making it sound and I apologize for that, I just don't want your depression to make this seem 100x worse than it really is.
And honestly, if your suicidal thoughts are getting that bad, as well as your urges and not eating, please call someone. Call your psychologist or therapist or psychiatrist and tell them it's an emergency (even if you don't feel it necessarily is), and tell them how you feel. They care about you and want to help you. They want to see you live and how matter how your parents may seem, I'm sure they want to see you live too.
Sending hugs and love <3
"It's not a dream anymore. It's worth fighting for."
"Well, if it's not real you can't hold it in your hands
You can't feel it with your heart
And I won't believe it.
But if it's true
You can see it with your eyes
Oh, even in the dark
And that's where I want to be, yeah" - Paramore
it's just i've gotten to the point now where i don't want to talk to anyone, everyone hates me, nobody wants to be around me...
Problem is i have tried so many ways of killing myself but absolutely none work... i just don't want to be here anymore and i don't see a reason why i should be here...
-sigh- update.... things have gone from bad to worse... my 2 best friends were hit by a drunk driver and one of my best friends were killed... i just... i don't know why this is happening to me, like why me? Why take my two closest friends away from me and injure another? why why why...
