I've been feeling pretty agitated the last few days because I've been trying really hard to do all I can to avoid SH-ing again. I've been battling this since I was 13 and was able to stop completely for about 4 years after getting help and something went royally wrong and I've since been secretly cutting again for the last year. I was doing good for about a month then last week I had a complete melt down and all rational thoughts I had went entirely out the window and of course...well you know what happened. I don't know what's going on but lately everything, the feelings of self-doubt & worthlessness seem to be becoming more & more extreme then ever. I find myself falling into deep depression and completely withdrawing for everybody and crying for no reason at all, then before I know it everything just goes blank and I'm completely numb.
I know I need someone to talk to I just have no idea who or where to begin. Everybody that once knew what I "used" to do think I've stopped and I don't want them to be disappointed or think anything different of me. I just feel extremely lost, alone and confused and I don't know how to put it into words to make anyone understand.....
