I cant stop thinking of suicide. I really dont know why, nothings happened today to trigger it but the feelings are there. I told myself I wouldnt live past this summer and I still think theres a fairly good chance that could happen. I just keep thinking im going to see my psych he wont be able to help so i wont have any option left but to do it. I saw the thing id been planning on using in the shop today to, im guessing that didnt help... Sorry if this is way to trggering to be posted in here, I can delete it
I tried to act on it last week.. but it was impulsive and i didnt use the plan id made because of the impulsivity of it.
It is wearing me down, sometimes I wonder why im even bothering making myself wait and why im bothering fighting it, i have to admit it does feel pretty hopeless.
I really hope you dont die in the next week, is there anyone else you can contact for help? can you go to a and e and ask them to admit you?
I'm not really sure what to say to that. I tihnk you should talk to the people that care about you though. Its them that are going to be hurt if anything happens to you, maybe they can change your mind.
Angel and Azmodan -I'm sorry your both feeling so bad. I know it doesn't feel like things can get better but they can. Please try and reach out to someone and get some help if you can. Hold on there
How are colour?
How is everyone else?
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Awww you live in Australia! You're so lucky. I'm doing animal care at college (I hate Humans, but feel ok with animals), and I want to move to Australia eventually. You have an amazing wildlife!
To say I'm completely devoid of morals, would be harsh. Although I would have to admit I find it difficult to give a ****.
