Contains sexual abuse - Finding it hard :(

Gem-Louise · 11-08-2012, 01:26 PM

I really dont know what to say i just really need a hug or something maybe just someone to tell me its going to be okay...can't stop dreaming about what happend i cant make the dreams stop keep having flash backs im so scared to tell anyone.. i dont know what to do anymore...its all my fault..no one made me meet him...i fell for the line 'Your amazing and i want to be with you and look after you'...im so STUPID ....im a SLAG a WHORE a BITCH :( .....why was i so stupid !!! ....i told him nearly everything about me and this happend ...its all my fault..just want to not be here right now :(

Sorry i dont deserve to post here :(

Patent Pending · 11-08-2012, 08:01 PM

Hi.

I don't think it was your fault...okay you met this person but you didn't make him do whatever he did.

These things happen unfortunately but it will get better. You won't always feel this bad. Have you thought about talking to someone about what has happened? Some people find it helps.

Take care of yourself.

Courtney xxxxx

Gem-Louise · 11-08-2012, 08:09 PM

I am really scared about talking about it i just want to get it out of my head and its really hard to make the dreams stop and i know it may help talking to someone i just dont know if i am strong enough to do that and to have to talk about what has happend and bringing it all back up :(

Patent Pending · 12-08-2012, 10:31 PM

I have found with my flashbacks and nightmares that if I want things to change I have to do something I've never done - for me it was finally talking about it.

It's different for everyone and yes, you do have to feel emotionally strong enough. Maybe you could try small...typing it out on here or to someone anonymous such as Samaritans etc?

As ever though...time does make a difference.

Courtney xxxx