"thought i told ya, i came to party"

[mat]

Well I'm pretty sober.. I guess? I am not doing what I like.. when I wrote 'im pretty sober'. I thought about a perscription pill I got muscle relaxer.. I think if you were to overly od on them is the only way you could really get high I gues in my view... it was 1 a day or something .. I took 2 or 3in the am & pm. Suck on em *** **** **** **** **** off.. I don't really view that as not being sober... I abused them I guess but perscribed...

But anyway.. I miss partying soo ****ing much -_-. I don't miss the ****ed up thoughts but I miss everything else. Just intaking whatever, drinking... take some more.. crush it snort it.. smoke it cook t.. hardstyle. Ppl... the good ass feeling tho fake , how comforting it is. I am glad I don't anymore. I just dream of one more crazy night... or crazy night n day after, ish. I don't feel burnt out... how bad I got n how much it took, has driven me to stop.. I haven't gone thru detox or rehab. I have before ad I did worse than now. I'm fairly positive about being sober but I miss partying.................. its nice having ppl to talk to, if u party hard usually someone wants to chat lol -_-.

[Fleeting Angel]

I miss partying so much!!!! Just careless and free. Not giving a **** about anything. Being crazy and out of control. I get so happy just remembering. Such out of the world fun. mind blowing happiness.


drugs.. alcohol.. it's crazy what they can do to us. and the people and music. crazy stuff happening. I miss it a lot but yeah... it became too unhealthy for me :(


I decided I'm just an extreme person. either I'm all in or I'm out. So since I can't get so ****ed up anymore without having long term negative health consequences, I'm out. but I do miss it though

sometimes I long for anything to alter my mental status.... stupid antidepressant pills. can't even get drunk anymore. it's better for my future life. oh but i do miss it so much

[Myshelle]

In my experience, I joined my NA home group and have become very close to alot of the other recovering addicts there. We do all kinds of stuff outside of meetings. We go bowling, act like fools in Walmart, go to the movies, etc. Like today, I spent all afternoon and late into the night with a group of the NA women at one of their houses and had a blast drinking strong coffee and laughing our a**es off and fit a meeting in there as well. 5 girls crammed in a little car that are clean addicts-priceless lol. We have fun together and it does alot of good for me and them and I don't think about "going out" or the bars/clubs anymore.

Last weekend my home group had our 8 year group anniversary meeting/party. We had music going at ear-splitting volumes and people were dancing, "popin-n-lockin" lol...it was a blast.

Just thought I would share that.

PM me if you'd like :)