failure.

[nothingofromance]

the past few weeks have been really bad for me, both SI wise and just all around. i didn't mean to start hurting myself again, i really didn't. i'd been pretty good, not hurting myself for about nine months (not too sure of the exact date) but idk how or why exactly, but i just needed to do it. the urge got to be too strong and i caved. it's escalated to a high point over the past six days, harming myself a lot more than i used to.

part of it is because my girlfriend found out and sort of blow up at me. she's been treating me like a five year old and i can't take it. i just end up feeling so much worse because i feel like i can't talk to her anymore.

[Ailsa]

Hi there,

I'm sorry you started harming again, but just remember it happens to us all, and as frustrating and depressing as it is, if you went without it for 9 months before, you can go without it for 9 months again, and more. You don't need SI, and you've proved that.

I'm sorry that your girlfriend didn't understand - I can really relate to what you're saying there. If she doesn't listen when you talk, it might help to give her something in writing. There's a section of Information for Family and Friends on here, you might want to print that out and show her. It could help her to understand.

I really hope things get better soon,

Ailsa xxx

[chels.harbor]

I'm really sorry that you started SI'ing again =\ . I know how hard it is and how much of a failure you feel, but youre not a failure. Relapse is part of recovery. the most important thing now is that you keep trying.

[PassedExpectations]

how are you doing?

having your girlfriend act that way is understandably upsetting and frustrating. try and remember that she is probably trying to do what she thinks will help though. she may be scared for you and not know what to do, and may not have accurate information about self harm. maybe you could print out some information for her and give her some specific suggestions about what she could do to help you.