I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry. I have to get out of here. They are not listening. I have to do things to stop the man and they stop me and he's getting madder and madder and I don't understand how the discharge forms work so I don't know how to get out and I'm scarred and guilty and selfish for being here when he is making people hurt. I need to just deal with it better even when its hard I undersatdnd that now and I'm so so sorry if he hurts anyone or makes you hurt. I need to leave I need to leave. I feel so guilty and selfish and I'm sorry because you have all hbeen so lovely and I'm not greatful enough. I didn't mean to die when I took the pills I judt had to make things stop but now I wish I had.
I'm sorry you feel they're not listening. Make sure you let them know that I'll be there at 17:30 this evening and am happy to talk to them to explain what's going on.
We're all going to be just fine, and if we're not, it's because we're a bunch of crazy people who do crazy shit, not because of anything you have or haven't done.
Please be strong and brave and dare to believe that this is a delusion, and he's not going to hurt anyone. You're really sick darling, and you have to be there so they can help you get better. I promise I wouldn't let you be admitted if I didn't think it was safest.
Oh, Jodie,
I know it's hard and horrible darling, especially when you believe that terrible things will be happening, but I promise we will be ok, and no-one is going to be hurt because of you. Have you explained your beliefs to the team there yet? Have you had a meeting with the psych there and things, perhaps they will be able to help reassure you?
Jodie it's hard when you have feelings like this but nothing is going to happen to us, we will be okay. Have you told the team there about the thoughts your having? Keep fighting hun, you will get through this. Thinking of you xxx
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Just being here is a challenge because it breaks rule 1. Nevermind the rest :s.
I saw the psych this morn for an intake and my 'team' is coming to see me soon. Don't know who they are. I'm not allowed to leave yet :/
Hey Jodie, what is rule 1? You deserve this help and support right now, and I know that it is not easy and that things seem very scary right now, but please tell the staff what is going on for you do they can help you the best they know how. You deserve that. I know it's scary *holds your hand*
Love you miss xxx
Aimee
Jodie I'm so sorry to hear that your in hospital but hopefully they can help you.
Jenna is right, anything bad that happens to any of us is not because of him, its because of our own decisions, he doesn't control us but it seems that he is controlling you right now which must be very scary. But he will go away soon, and part of me wants to and beat him to death myself because of how much he has hurt you.
We all love you Jodie and hopefully I can come visit you soon if you want me to of course.
JodMum, you have to listen to us, and to Jenna, she said it perfectly. It is a delusion, you need to believe us when we say that the man isn't "real", he isn't going to hurt any of us, he's real to you, I understand that, I do, but you have to try and believe us at least when we say he won't hurt us, and he won't hurt you, and you need help, you're very poorly lovely Mum, you need to try and think that you do have an illness and you need help to get better, or at least be in a better place and more stable and aware of what's going on and what is real and what isn't and all that lovely stuff!
You can do this, we believe in you, try and believe in yourself, you're so strong and amazing, you can get through this.
Talk to the people there, talk to them about what you're feeling, what's going through your mind, pretty much everything you've said here, just open up to them, just a bit, so they can try to help you better... or maybe write it down, or show them what you've said on here?
*so many cuddles and snuggles*
If you have your phone, BBM/text/call me anytime, I'm always here, always.
I love you.
P.S Hush about being not grateful and feeling guilty, we're here for you, you need the support and help, and we're here to offer that and shower you with love! :)
xxxxxxxxxx
edit;
These are what I agree with completely;
Laura;
"anything bad that happens to any of us is not because of him, its because of our own decisions, he doesn't control us but it seems that he is controlling you right now which must be very scary. But he will go away soon, and part of me wants to and beat him to death myself because of how much he has hurt you."
&
Jenna;
"We're all going to be just fine, and if we're not, it's because we're a bunch of crazy people who do crazy shit, not because of anything you have or haven't done.
Please be strong and brave and dare to believe that this is a delusion, and he's not going to hurt anyone. You're really sick darling, and you have to be there so they can help you get better. I promise I wouldn't let you be admitted if I didn't think it was safest."
Hey jodieface! I'm on my mobile so will have to be brief but needed to tell you I love you and I'm thinking of you loads. No one is going to get hurt because of him hun, please try and believe us.
You've been struggling for so long, the staff want to keep you safe and get you well again.
If you are still there at the weekend I will engage in ALL the visiting. I am a top class stalker :)
Love you sweetie xx
Let us go then you and I, when the evening is spread out against the sky, like a patient etherized upon a table
- T.S. Elliot
I couldn't agree more with Jenna's last post. Please try and work with them, sweetheart, they only have your best interests at heart. Sending you ALL the love <3
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
I hope that things get easier and better for you soon Jodie.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
Thinking of you. Please try and challenge your thinking as much as possible. People aren't lying to you, especially when more than one person is saying the same thing. I don't know the in's and out's but you are safe.
Im really sad to hear about this, I hope the admission helps you
He was no longer jean valjean but no. 24601 -les miserable
Some of life's mysteries will never be solved, such as why, after spending an entire evening listenong to Bach, do I find myself humming "the birdie song".......
I am reaching, but i fall, and the stars are black and cold, as i stare into the void of a world that cannot hold- les miserables
Jodie, i'm thinking of you at the moment. I understand everything that is happening is quite difficult and probably a little bit scary too, but i'm almost certain it is all with good intentions and the outcome will be that of a better one... I'm not sure everybody would be so certain that you should recieve the help you are being offered if they felt there was even a tiny amount of risk that this would cause any harm to them.
I'm not really sure of what else to say, but you're very obviously not alone...
Stay strong <3
Jenna, you know i'm here if you need anything. I'm proud of you... <3
And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears. And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears...
Hey jodieface! I'm on my mobile so will have to be brief but needed to tell you I love you and I'm thinking of you loads. No one is going to get hurt because of him hun, please try and believe us.
You've been struggling for so long, the staff want to keep you safe and get you well again.
This.
Love you Jodie & I'm thinking about you. <3
DILLIGAF
"it’s when you’re acting selflessly, that you are at your bravest"
- Four.
♥
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