Can somebody talk to me? I don't know what to do!

KaylaT · 16-05-2012, 10:39 AM

I am failing half my classes in school, I have asbergers, and I also have bipolar. If I can't bring my grades up, I can't do a college program, shattering my dreams. I already am trying my best and I can't do it. My grades are normally all As and Bs with maybe a C, but since I went to saint mary's and got suicidal they dropped like mad and I can't bring them back up. I don't know what to do. I'm afraid of dying, but suicide is always an option, even if it's a bad one. Please help me. :(

KaylaT · 16-05-2012, 10:41 AM

I'm in high school by the way, just so you don't get confused.

KaylaT · 16-05-2012, 10:53 AM

I'm trying to calm down right now, but school starts soon, so I probably will just panic. I really want to go today, but at the same time I don't! I hope somebody can reply to my thread soon so I can go to school today without freaking out, or go at all for that matter.

KaylaT · 16-05-2012, 11:15 AM

I'm gonna play my video game, go to school, go out for an ice cream, play my video games some more, then nap. I'm just gonna focus on today instead of the future. It's way easier that way! :)

Niniane · 16-05-2012, 12:50 PM

What made you so scared of going to school today ?

crazykat · 16-05-2012, 12:54 PM

Can you talk to someone at your school about the way your feeling? That way they can offer you a bit of extra support to get through the way your feeling and also help you with your grades. You will get through this, hold on there
Kat xxx

Lynn134 · 16-05-2012, 06:40 PM

Hey there. High school is tough enough as it is and to hear that you had such amazing grades while battling bipolar and aspergers! Way to go! If you did it once you can do it again. But depression can cause a person to not be able to focus which makes class and homework difficult and probably doubling with your other diagnosises. What has happened to cause you to feel suicidal? Is there anyway you could talk to your teachers about extra credit work to try to raise your grades? What about a tutor someone who can help you focus. Or what about a study group of friends in the same classes? Are you having a hard time focusing or are you not understanding the material or do you just not really care because you are suicidal?
Suicide may remain open as a solution for you but if you do that then you won't have a future at all. I've attempted suicide when I was a senior in high school and never thought life would get better. Now I have two little boys whom I am so thankful for and happy I am alive to enjoy the future I had in store for me.