i have been for a while..but that is besides the point
for quite some time i havent been able to sleep... rather i am afraid to go to sleep...i cant sleep...i have too many ****ing nightmares of what is going on in me and to me and around me.. neways..they make it freaking impossible for me to sleep...which is bad because i am tired the next moring and then i miss class which is bad becuz if i miss ne more class my grades will drop even more.
so yes..these nightmares..i see myself cutting...bleeding to death...being hit..and just reliving everything that i have done or seen or been thru in the past. but besides things that i real, i see in my nightmares myself as this monster..this hideous thing...trying to kill everyione including myself and just taking over everything and going ****ing insane.....it scares me so much that i cry myself to sleep...
i am afraid to go to sleep tonight...lots of ****ed up shitty things happened today....
but most of all i am afraid...afraid of myself..
can anybody help me????
how do i make these monsters go away??
in other traditions demons are expelled externally, but in my tradition demons are accepted with compassion. - Machik Labdron
they were perfect, they were beautiful. they met in the middle of nowhere, in the middle of nothing, and kissed where everyone could see. no words. no before. no after. they kissed and it was perfect. it was beautiful. it was everything. it was nothing.
I don't really know what to say but good luck in finding a way around it so you can sleep again.
"...that incremental suicide of turning your life into a dream, to make being awake as similar to sleep as possible. Drowsily, lazily, dry-mouth your way through the day's ceremonies, fumble your way back into the dew-bather you never really left, draped in brown, brown now all around, the haze!" - Russell Brand on drug addiction.
"Si ma êkh gûndo piyiamásko...ándo bírto barruno. Bírto, bírto barruno."
well i can suggest you see a counciler who can probably help you more, but for the needed sleep, before you go to bed do a cleansing meditation to rid yourself of negative energies and if it'll help put your head in the right place, buy a dream catcher and hang it from your ceiling right above your head.
If you need to talk more, don't hesitate to pm me.
Without a light I fear that I will stumble in the dark,
lay right down,
decide not to go on.
Plumeria Sister
i would sugest that you see someone and talk to them about it or tell a close friend, i know what its like though i also have nightmares and flashbacks, they seem so real its hard to remember that they´re not
I've had the same problem, and its usually only temporary. I thought they were never going to end, then I started to talk about the nightmares to my psychologist, and she didnt say anything particular to me, just listened, and after a while, the nightmares went away. Try talking to someone about them. Its worth a shot methinks.
Sorry I'm not in a good place right now, so I'l just copy and paste what I've said to people before:
Ok,
I have nightmare problems too. The thing is, if you stay awake, your body then does twice the REM sleep when you do go to sleep, which produces more nightmares.
What I suggest is nightmare rehearsal. Are you having the same dream or or themes in your dreams? Basically, write or draw out the dream in as much detail as possible. Go over it several times. Then rewrite it and change it so that it's not scary, either by making yourself super powerful, making the villain silly, or having something funny happen. We could go through what you could change it to here, if you have trouble. For instance, say you have a dream where a death eater stabs you with a sword (I have Harry Potter on the brain, sorry). Change it so he stabs you with a rubber duck (apart from that a death eater would have a wand not a sword anyway). Rewrite this new dream really carefully and go over it forabotu 20 minutes during the day, especially just before you go to sleep.
