Yes I sat in a car park once for 3 hours listening to radio - every single song, news bulletin, etc was about me. Are you on any meds at the moment? Only advice can give Is to turn it off and tell someone you're having these thoughts
Stopped taking antipsychotics about two weeks ago, when I accidently ran out.
Have GP appointment already on Monday. I should probably go back on meds, shouldn't I :(
yes!!!! im glad you posted this actually because was wondering what would happen went off meds :/
hope you feel better quickly when you're back on them.
Hi Duck, I think it would be a really good idea to go back on the meds. Do you have any uncertainties about going back on them that you want to discuss here or with your GP?
I hate taking them. I am on flupenthixol which has a 5% chance per year of tardive dyskinesia, and it makes me feel stupid. But last year in November the voices were too bad and I had to be in hospital. Can't manage that either.
and...just some musings i guess.
things that are part of psychosis are often made the brunt of jokes etc. in the media. its one of the more "taboo" m.h. topics, one people are disturbed by a lot. hearing things that arent there, having voice(s) or somethin like that in head, completely irrational fears...seen that made light of so many times. i dunno, jus...i hate it, hate having psychotic stuff. im too afraid to talk to most people about it. don't want to be looked down on. *ends ramble* anyone else feel like this?
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
Yeah, I *hate* the media stuff. For me, I find the best thing to do is argue back! I've done some publicity work with the mental health charity Rethink - I've even been in the Sun newspaper talking about my experience of 'schizophrenia'. http://www.thesun.co.uk/sol/homepage...-disorder.html
Duck, it was very brave of you to do that, and really inspiring to read.
Brew, maybe it would be a good idea to tell someone you trust before Violet gets stronger?
I am well at the moment. But I do not know what is real and what isn't ie. what is a true memory and what is a component of psychosis. Like, the memories I have of going to parallel worlds are made of the same stuff as things I feel fairly sure have really happened. I am feeling very disoriented. I am also suffering a lot from derealisation at the moment - do other people have this? My memory and concentration are extremely poor. Even little things confuse me, like when there was a block of cheese with 'cumberland sausage' written on it, I thought it was cumberland sausage and everyone laughed and I felt really confused. And when I went to a murder mystery evening I thought the person was really dead and got very upset and had to leave. I also thought I had walked into someone's living room the other day and cried, it turned out it was an interior showroom in a shop.
Sorry that was long. I'm just not the person I once was. I feel like I am left with 'dregs' of psychosis all the time, I feel like I have no foundation as I don't have a narrative memory of my past, I have a some flashes over the years but don't know if they really happened or not. It leaves me frustrated and worried.
Whether or not they think you have psychosis or not, laughing and doing anything but treating the matter seriously and with respect is completely unprofessional and wrong. Is there some way to report them?
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
I feel stupid because I was referred to the Early Intervention in Psychosis team for an assessment to see if I am psychotic. They've concluded that I'm not. So basically all these things I believe are a load of rubbish, not a symptom of a mental illness, the voices I hear are not a symptom of a mental illness. I feel like I've just told these people about quite embarrassing stuff as if they don't believe I am psychotic, then they must think I am making things up.
When they talked to me about my beliefs they laughed sometimes and it just makes me feel like they take me for being a joke. I feel like an idiot for telling them everything.
have you tried seeing someone else?
i was in a similar situation. then a counsellor referred me to someone else and that person actually helped.
some people are cruel, and the people that laughed at you don't deserve to be in the job they're in. but some people actually want to help, and you shouldn't feel like you're alone with these problems.
Sorry to bump this thread but just I got diagnosed with psychotic features today and it upset a bit.
I was just wonder what happened when everyone else go diagnosed with any form of psychosis and how did you feel?
I got diagnosed after a stay in hospital and an out patient assessment two days ago.
Did you know you had psychosis? I think I knew my thoughts and experiences were odd but always thought of psychosis as something other people had.
Thanks in advance for any replies.
The average,
well-adjusted adult
gets up at 7.30am feeling just plain terrible.
Call me Kate.
I have dyslexia so please excuse my poor spelling and sometimes poor understanding.
I have been psychotic (no idea about diagnosis, sorry) and looking back at the time I had no idea but I can view the thoughts and actions the i had/did as being abnormal and accept i was ill. I'm unsure how one recognises that one is psychotic at the time though =/
This is my first time posting in this thread, I think, though I've been lurking here for a while.
I was diagnosed months ago with Psychotic Depression, then my diagnosis changed to BPD with psychosis a few weeks ago. I think I felt a lot of denial at first when they told me I had psychosis. I still sort of feel denial-ish because I feel like people are trying to tell me that it's not okay to have an over active imagination, or it's not okay to hear voices from aliens and god.
I actually didn't know anything about psychosis (other than I thought "psychotic" meant serial killer) before I was diagnosed
I saw psychotic people when I was in hospital and I was once medicated out of a psychotic episode while I was there but I still kind of don't believe it.
I feel scared.
The average,
well-adjusted adult
gets up at 7.30am feeling just plain terrible.
Call me Kate.
I have dyslexia so please excuse my poor spelling and sometimes poor understanding.
I can't hold thoughts together, I can hear strange things, aliens have put a chip in my foot. Meds were changed on tues but I think it's making the aliens angry which is why I can't think straight. So confused and feeling fed up that I'm finding things so difficult when everyone else is ok. Been diagnosed with schizo affective disorder but I'm not sure I've got psychosis because aliens are real. If the universe is infinite then anything is possible so it's very possible that these strange things are happening because of them.
