one day.....one day very far from now, those scars will help be a part of making you who you are. whoever loves you WILL touch them caringly, and want to know the pain that caused you to do that to yourself. and they will understand.
None of us really understand anything about anyone else that we dont know. why is his hair orange? why if she goth? why is he emo? why is he overweight? why does she have scars on her arms? the truth, the honest to god truth, is that everyone is too worried about what others think of them to be really judging you. Your scars indicate a past, and maybe a difficult and dark one. That is noting to be ashamed of. You find me one person on this ENTIRE planet who carries neither internal nor external scars and I will concede that you are indeed unusual. But until you do, work on embracing you as you are, not blaming yourself for something that cannot be undone, and it's okay that it cannot be undone.
i'm a cutter too. i have scars. people dont ask about them and i often dont talk about them. my older brother also died of a drug overdose when he was 21. thats a very deep scar that no one can see, and yet i want people to see it to know the burden that i carry. it's almost a catch 22....the external scars we DO have, we dont want people to see, but the internal scars we carry, we need sympathy for.
you deserve to love yourself in your entirety, scars, pain and all. because you are human and you are fragile just like everyone else and our fragility causes us pain but without the pain, it is so much more difficult to see the beauty in others. because i am a cutter, i see the beauty in you. i see your worth. i want so much for you to let go of the guilt you put on yourself for being human and having overwhelming emotions that are incredibly difficult to deal with. but only you can make that change. PM me if you want to talk. we're here for you. xx
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