The End

[strawberry11]

I can't do this anymore. I honestly can't. I keep hurting everyone around me and friends I know. They are scared for me. I'm scared for myself. I don't want to do anything to myself but I'm not doing well. If the idea came up and was so so strong I'm scared I wouldn't be able to stop myself. I'm scared. I would rather just not deal with it anymore. Back on the same meds but I just can't wait for them to work for 6+ weeks. I'm done. I'm over. The End.

[musicmad123]

Hey don't go anywhere please! You can do this, you have been doing it and you can continue, it seems like things are really hard for you atm but they will get better. Does anyone know how you're feeling atm; parents or family, therapist? If not it might be a good idea to let someone know so they can keep a closer eye on you whilst you're struggling to keep you safe.
Hang in there

[Tig]

Hey lovely,

I am sorry to hear you are having such a horrible time of late. It sounds like you are very frightened for yourself and that others are also frightened. I am sure you aren't hurting them though, they care about you and want the best for you because you are obviously very special to them.

It isn't over yet, please give yourself a chance. I know that six weeks feels like an incredibly long time, and it is when you are feeling awful, but if you were to end your life now, then you will never know what could be at the end of those six weeks. What happens if the medication were to work quicker than that, or even if it didn't but at the end of the six weeks it makes your life so much better? It would be such a terrible waste for you to lose that oppurtunity ~ please try and fight these thoughts.

As MusicMad said, you have been doing and fighting this. Keep going, I empathise, I know it's hard and I wish you didn't have to fight every day but please do try.

Do you have support? Reach out, you deserve the help.

xx

[DannieGirl]

Things will look up...i know it's hard to believe...but it will get better

[Dr_boo]

My meds take 6weeks to work too. But remember that 6 week is only 6 week. It is not forever. In 7 weeks you should be feeling ok.
Keep going and talk to your team if you need to. X

[strawberry11]

thanks for the replies everyone...I honestly feel like I'm just having a pity party about myself. I have now pushed away all friends. I can't do this anymore. I just can't. I can't even afford going to the hospital. I feel horrible!!! Like really really bad. I have thoughts of exactly what i want to do to myself. Even if I didn't have to worry about money and going to the hospital that would do no good. I know the hospital is the last resort and the one thing you shouldn't do. Honestly though at the moment I don't think there will be another day for me. I honestly have nothing to live for anymore. I go through the motions of life trying to make it but I just can't. I can't.