Graphic - I want to die.

[lower than myself]

I can't do this anymore.

[Pops.]

Sorry to see that you're struggling. Do you want to say more about what it is that is making you feel that way? Here to listen if it will help to talk some more about how you're feeling. Take care x

[lower than myself]

I tried to spend the night on my own last night, and managed for 3 hours. But then the voices, they got so loud. I hid my tablets, I can't hurt my boyfriend by overdosing, his mum would kill me..

I was stupid enough to ring him, tell him that the voices were getting louder, that they were shouting, telling me to kill myself, I'll be better off if I kill myself, everyone will. I feel so empty inside. The voices are still shouting. My boyfriend dragged his brother back to our flat because his mental girlfriend can't look after herself. They were meant to be going shooting, but the bad weather made the roads difficult, now they're stuck with me. A stupid, idiotic, manic depressive girl who can't look after herself.

I haven't smiled in 2 days. I won't talk unless it's neccesary. I hate what I've become. I can't tell him I want to die, he won't forgive me.

[PassedExpectations]

is there anyone else you could call, other than your boyfriend?

[lower than myself]

Not really, I've moved like 60 miles from home, so calling my mum for cuddles isn't the easiest thing to do at the minute, heh.

I'm going to make an appointment monday for the drs, I need something to help me sleep at night, the voices are strangely louder at night, even though they're only whispering, they're louder than they are during the day.

It's killing my boyfriend, I don't know what to do..

[lower than myself]

I have an appointment with my GP on thursday, voices are getting louder, paracetamol doesn't help, not for long.. :/

[PassedExpectations]

im glad to hear that you have an appt on thursday :)

i'm not in the uk, so i might be off on this... but isn't paracetamol a painkiller, not a drug prescribed for depression/anxiety/etc?... are you supposed to be taking it? even if it was helping, taking things that aren't prescribed or recommended by a doctor is dangerous...

[lower than myself]

It's just to stop the headaches, I'm taking them when I get really bad migranes etc - just thought they'd help.

Boyfriend's been amazing, gone through some techniques with me, some of which helped, others.. not so much.

#just want it all to go away now

[Pops.]

Just wanted to say good luck for your appointment tomorrow :)
Glad you were able to speak to your boyfriend and that he's been supportive. Let us know how you get on? Take care xxx