I got through today. It was hell, but I did it. I didn't have a panic attack. I controlled it. Seems like bugger all and highly doubt anyone will give a **** but yeah. Success-ish.
Very proud
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
Alex- well done for going to class :)
Ilana- that was brave, to let people touch your tummy, and I'm glad it turned out to be positive, and hopefully it'll help you to accept how your body is changing with the baby being there :)
Katy- awesome work for controlling your panic attack and getting through the day!
JodiE- Well done for getting uni work done. I should like to announce further stickerness for JodiE as she's been able to ask for help, and is working on getting through today safely so she can come and see meeee tonight :)
Marie- That's so great! I know it's scary, but you're doing the right thing. I hope you had a most tasty dinner!
Anna- so proud of you sweetheart <3 Well done! Keep fighting those horrid ED voices.
I ate a respectable amount yesterday, and didn't purge. *nods*
Oh, where are you going Lio? Hope you have fun. Also, not pathetic.
Jenna, I am happy about your heroic respectable amount eating and not purging. It's a huge step!
Im glad to hear your all being awesome!
I think i may have now resolved the mum issues too! So im doing super good!
Everyone else keep at it
He was no longer jean valjean but no. 24601 -les miserable
Some of life's mysteries will never be solved, such as why, after spending an entire evening listenong to Bach, do I find myself humming "the birdie song".......
I am reaching, but i fall, and the stars are black and cold, as i stare into the void of a world that cannot hold- les miserables
I do not think I am up to being a hero today.
Actually, I don't think I ever will be... but it makes me so happy to hear all of these wonderful things!
Do love reading all the hero-ness, makes me all smiley and proud of you guys <3
And I am posting this here because yeah, perhaps need to recognise that its an achievement. Today I did not binge or restrict for the first time in quite a while.
I have a Hero Plan that I decided to share here because putting it here makes it Official and I would be less likely to be able to get out of doing it.
The Hero Plan is to not count up my food intake during the month of February. It's kind of A Big Deal, because it's a habit I've had for years and I do almost automatically, and also because I've been doing pretty well with other things in my recovery (except the recent Silly Situation *shame*) so I feel it's time to push myself onto the next thing, and not continue fooling myself by being content with compromises, because that's stupid and won't get me anywhere. So yes. A Plan.
/essay
Good Luck with your plan Anna, I'm sure you can do it!
I on the other hand, have been not so heroic recently and have ended up in A&E 3 days running and been admitted to general wards for treatment, however I was brave and let them stitch me (but I refused an operation to fix my arm better) and I was especially brave and let them give me a drip treatment even though it makes me sick.
So can I get a sticker for being brave or does my silly actions cancel it out?
"Do you know what depression feels like?
It feels like a thousand pound weight holding your body down in a pool of water barely reaching your chin, so no matter how bad your neck hurts you gotta keep your head up to survive."
Ilana, you've been very heroic recently! Proof that you can do it <3
Lillie, I'm super-proud of you for that, I hope you're feeling physically a little better for having eaten 'normally' for a day :)
ANNAAA!! That sounds amazingly heroic, and An Excellent Idea. I will certainly help to prod you along the way :)
hannah- well done for allowing them to stitch you; I hope that you'll be able to co-operate further with the professionals and let them help you. Good luck!
JodiE is a hero. Yesterday she came to our Cheese and Wine Night, and tried loads of new things and ate and was heroic. And she took her meds :) And is watching me type this, so I'm feeling a little self-conscious, as I don't know if I'm writing stuff right :-/
Today she is (possibly) going to be heroic and go to A and E about stuff. At least, she will if I have anything to do with it :p
Jodie has now stolen jenna's laptop to inform you al that jenna was brave last night also :D:D She was very sociable and spent the night with lots of (scary) new people (okay, they were actually rather nice, but still!) and was brave and tried new foods when I poked her. And she ate foods and was all brave about it :D Oh, and medication was also taken. AND. She was very supportive of me and my woefullness. So I feel being a wonderful friend is heroic!
I am bemused by the fact that the MeaCulpas have posted from the same account :D
I am very proud of you both, my lovelies. *\o/*
Hannah, well done! That's quite brave. :)
Thank you for the support Jenna. I was feeling a bit silly after The Incident, so decided something had to be done. Do you think I should start my February challenge now or on the 1st?
