I'm an atheist. I think it is kind of a factor in my SHing. I used to believe in God, but eventually I just couldn't anymore. One of the many reasons I SH is because everything seems so hopeless. I see no reason in anything, and I know that it's not gonna get better. There's no God to help me through this stuff. And it also has a lot do with me getting depressed, because this world is such a dark place to me, and I have no Heaven to look forward to or anything. But I think it doesn't matter what you believe in, you can still SH, that's obvious, but I guess it can be a factor that leads you to it. But it might also have nothing to do with it at all...
I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could've been.
I've been wallowing in my own chaotic
And insecure delusions.
I wanna feel the change consume me,
Feel the outside turning in.
I wanna feel the metamorphosis and
Cleansing I've endured within.
I don't think my self-harm and my atheism have ever been related. I do believe that the reason stuff like self-harm exists is part of the basis for my lack of belief in God.
I went to a very religious school growing up. I used to take a lot of abuse for not fitting in exactly as they wanted me to. I now consider myself an Atheist. I am not sure though, if I stopped believing because of the way I was treated, or was I treated badly because I didn't believe. I don't think I was mature enough to know if I believed or not though I was just a rebellious kid. But I do know that the way I was treated is a big part of why I still cut to this day!
I stopped beliefing in god a long time ago. I think it is, because if there was a god then a lot of things wouldn't have happened to me. If god was really everywhere and taking care of ppl. then we would prevent bad things from happening. Later I started to think if it was right to say that there is no god at all, because I don't have proof that god doesn't exist.
I don't believe there is a god, but I don't disbelieve either. I don't really care if there is a god or not, because for me there are so many things to figure out with success that I don't want to spend too much thought on the question whether a god exists or not.
So I geuss I would be agnostic.
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Agnosticism is the view that the truth value of certain claims—especially claims about the existence or non-existence of any deity, but also other religious and metaphysical claims—is unknown or unknowable.[1][2] Agnosticism can be defined in various ways, and is sometimes used to indicate doubt or a skeptical approach to questions. In some senses, agnosticism is a stance about the difference between belief and knowledge, rather than about any specific claim or belief. In the popular sense, an agnostic is someone who neither believes nor disbelieves there is a God, whereas an atheist disbelieves in God.[2] In the strict sense, however, agnosticism is the view that human reason is incapable of providing sufficient rational grounds to justify knowledge of whether God does or does not exist.
Anyway... SH and the belief in any god does not relate to me at all. SH and religion I uderstand, but not SH and belief.
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
I'm an atheist, but I used to be an evangelical protestant as a kid. Losing faith is always a traumatic experience. I cut because it helps me get my **** together, and because I know that if I don't, there's no one to help me out.
It's very convenient for me not to believe in god. I know I'd be going straight to hell if he existed.
People say that god is so forgiving, but then why would someone go to hell for sh? If god was really as forgiving as people say, then there wouldn't be a hell and sh wouldn't be as much of a sin, right?
Sorry... that's offtopic. I was just thinking...
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
People say that god is so forgiving, but then why would someone go to hell for sh? If god was really as forgiving as people say, then there wouldn't be a hell and sh wouldn't be as much of a sin, right?
Sorry... that's offtopic. I was just thinking...
The way I was taught is that god can forgive and will forgive if you ask, but he doesn't "let things slide" as default. "Marking your flesh" is a sin, if you do it willingly, you'll have to set things right. Also, while god forgives your sins, he won't remove the consequences of your sin: if you murder someone, you'll have to deal with the law. If you disobey god, you'll have to deal with the consequences. Not even Moses was spared for his disobedienced: God told him to talk to a rock so water would flow from it. Moses whacked the rock with a stick and didn't get to enter the promised land for it.
How have i only just found this here thread?....
I'm an atheist (much love to all the other religions <3) i used to go to church when i was little but i don't believe in the old man up there now.
Anyways...i don't think religion has anything to do with anything to be honest, everyone cuts (you know what i mean) even if they are Muslim/God lovers/Jewish etc etc...
I was forced into church most of my life, not going once my grandmother passed. </3 Even when I went, church wasn't a religious thing for me. I felt no hope, no presence, no excitement, joy, whatever from going. At first I was openminded, then the more I went the more nothing made sense to me.
I am still open to learning about all religions, and actually loved taking religion classes. It's really interesting to learn all the views one can have about how the earth got here and why we're here.
As for my self harm, I don't believe it's related at all. In a way, I was punishing myself much like the OP, I am gay and have known for years. But I don't think it was the religious aspect of homosexuality being bad. I went to a very accepting Lutheran church, that had a few "out" members. It was the social aspect, the fact that it was so wrong not in God's eyes but in everyone elses'.
So yeah. That is the story of my self-harm and atheism.
Sorry for the little rant/ramble/rave whatever. (:
I know you know that we could do more but we just don't...
I was also forced into going to Church...but it was never really about truly believing for me - the most I remember about being in Church is funerals and I always felt so alone at those times so it was never comforting.
I am always open to peoples religions and I always listen to other people's point of views...but for me I can't believe there's anything else out there.
x Katie x
