Hi kids, 'tis me. Sigh. I've been having a rough time lately and it's pretty much only gotten worse. I feel like I've screwed up my whole education/life/everything... :'( To top it off, my mom has a new job 4 hours away so I've been taking care of our house and my little brother (he's not little, he's 17 and a varsity football player) anyway, so this past weekend was thanksgiving...my mom came down for the whole weekend, to spend time at home with us and to help me with work (I'm a kennel tech, I have to take care of boarding animals and we had 18 dogs and I was working alone-so my mom had volunteered to help). Dayton (where she lives) was in the football playoffs and my little brother had already kinda thought about moving there to finish out his senior year (and my mom wants him to move there to save some money and keep him focused so senioritis won't be to bad) so they left on Friday to go see the playoff game, and they stayed up there all weekend so he could meet people, and make a college trip to a school he's looking at attending in Houston (35 minutes away from my mom's new house). He's probably visiting the high school right now...if he likes it, he'll be back tonight to start packing, he'll go to his high school tomorrow to un-enroll and say goodbye and then Wednesday he'll move his stuff up to Dayton. I want him to be happy, to be smart, to do what he needs to do...but honestly, the past few nights and days alone has killed me...I'm all on my own, with the exception of 7 dogs (don't ask it's a long story) and my cat.
I don't know how I'll fare without someone to talk to, to laugh at, to fight with....sigh...it doesn't help that I've really been questioning my life, where I want to be in 10 years, what I want to accomplish...I feel like I've wasted so much of my life...and with nothing to show for it.
I'm done moaning...any support or advice would be greatly appreciated, it's been a rough time.
