PRN doesn't seem to help right now so giving it a break so will work again soon hopefully.
I have been in services for 4 years, numerous and 2 lengthy hospital stays and been turned down for other therapies because of risk. It was this or residential and luckily they assessed me as meeting criteria but they can still turn around during the 6 pre-treatment sessions and say not suitable and not able to join the full programme. That would leave me like this with no options. Sorry, that probably doesn't make sense.
I used to be so successful at everything and now I'm just this stupid bpd wreck.
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
*waves back* Hi Carrie, Im Chas.
Understand about the PRN - good idea to give it a break if it's not doing anything
I think I got a picture of what's going on for you at the mo. May be you are looking at it too broadly. Take it in 'bite size chuncks' (Jeez, I sound like my therapist lol). Just try and take each pre-treatment session one at a time. Tell the DBT therapist you are concerned that your going to be found unsuitiable and that is really worrying you and making you have bad thoughts. I am sure they will have had people in similar situations before and maybe they will be able to give you some reassurances and coping techniques to get you through the next few weeks when your pre sessions will be.
sorry, this is probably crap advice that you've heard before, but may be you just need to be reassured that it's ok to feel how you're feeling at the moment because this is so important to you.
I know how you mean about the successful thing. Many moons ago I had a successful career, but that's shot to **** thanks to bpd.
Hi Chas. Thanks. I'm worried by telling her what it is making me want to do will be seen as manipulative or that in itself will be enough to get me kicked out at this stage. Sorry, just really worried that this won't go ahead.
Tried calling crisis a few times but it is ringing out and the usual voicemail is not kicking in so can't leave a message. Maybe it's a sign that I just need to get it over with.
Sorry to hear your life has been wrecked too hun
x
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
...so may be you could tell her you are worried that you'll be seen as manipulative by telling her what you've got in your mind of doing?
I doubt it will be enough to get you kicked off the programme because you haven't acted on the thoughts... please don't act on the thoughts.
Have you tried phoning the hospital switchboard or A&E and explaining that the answerphone isn't clicking on?
Alternatively try phoning Sams??
Yeah.. life wrecked by bpd.. but am still here, fighting... just!
Maybe. I think I definitely need to tell her how much stress the possibility of rejection is affecting me somehow.
Finally got through to crisis and it was someone who is useful to talk to so feeling a little calmer about things. Cried like a big baby though. She's going to check out the 'phones to see why it wasn't kicking through to voicemail.
Glad you are still fighting. Do you have any help?
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
I really hope you can tell her about the stress of poss rejection. *sends strength and hug*
Great that you got through to crisis and that they were useful. Pleased you are feeling a bit calmer. It's good to cry! Let's the emotion out.
I have some help. I live alone but have a cpn and am in group therapy. Also have a support worker who comes once a week. We get on ok. Life's a struggle but just have to get on with it best I can, sometimes it gets too much though.
Am off to bed now. glad you are calmer. I hope you are able to get some sleep. Please try and stay safe. Night hun xx
hi carrie try not to worry so much about the pre treatment thing about being suitable or not i worried soo much its more to see if ur commited or not if that makes sense im glad u spoke to the crisis team if u wanna talk mpore just pm me ok and ill give u all my knowledge :)
been strugglign with my mood for last few weeks its plummeted to the point they r getting me into see my psych on mon and ive had phone calls with my cpn most days to make sure im ok and they want me to think about hosp if things dont improve pronto..
i shud phone crisis team but it gets complicated cus im away at uni and im paranoid that i will fall through the cracks cus inoone will take responsibility for me..
.neway there is no netball this weekend so im trying to do my uni work im in my 3rd year so stressful as hell im slightly behind but cnt concentrate for ****
im sorry if ive missed ppl out cudnt concentrate long enough to read them properly so dont wanna get things wrong x
Morning all. Weather is **** but got church this morning - a guy who has been supporting us through the alpha course is getting baptised today so want to be there to return the support :) Might go use my cineworld card and see a film this afternoon
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
Good morning.
Hope everyone had a good sleep last night.
Enjoy church Carrie
What film do you think you might see?
I'm not up to much today - meeting a mate for coffee later, that's about it really. May be I should do some housework? Errrr... then again, may be I won't!
Have a good day everyone x
Sorry to hear youre struggling Cheryl..hope things improve for you xx
Hi Auror and strawberry..hope all is well with you both xx
Hope all goes well at church Carrie...seing a film sounds likw a good idea..I hope you enjoy it xx
Hi Chas, Im in the same situation re housework and going out for coffee later...so I may do a little now and use going out for a coffee as some kind of reward....xx
