Graphic - triggered muchly

[xflutterbyex]

So tonight I watched Teenage Vampires on channel 4 and its triggred me like crazy... im so desperate to cut.... deep

I wanna cut deep enuf to need stitches its driving me crazy and im worried ill obsess over it continuosly until I actually do it.

I dont know wat to do.

[Petite Souris]

I'm sorry that you're feeling like this!

I know what it's like to be horribly triggered after watching something. Is there anyone you can talk to, like a psychologist?
I would try to keep busy and distracted. Take care of yourself and try to stay away from things that you believe trigger you.

Hope you'll be okay.

[black_sheep]

omg was wondering if neone had posted about that prog - am half way thru watching it now. was not expecting the graphic-ness of it. hope ur ok :S x

[PassedExpectations]

how are you doing? and you too black sheep?.... i find that its often helpful for me to check out a review of shows i think might be triggering to get an idea of whether i really want to watch them

[xflutterbyex]

I fucked up and cut deeply ended up needing butterfly stitches. The nurse at my gps fixed it up for me but shes asked me to seriously consider going inpatient for a few days and im finding it really hard to know what to do. I desperately dont want to go inpatient again it really freaks me out but I still haven't cut deep enuf to staisfy the desire... I wanna cut real deep enuf to need at least 5 stitches. Its killing me. I dont know what to do I dont like asking for help or support and I see support threads made on here and I getjjjjjjj kind of jealous and I just really need support too I just... I dont want to be selfish and ask for it but right now it feels so messed up..... I just need to know im not alone I dont need constantly to be told im loved or need hugs all the time I just need to know im not alone.....

[PassedExpectations]

you aren't alone. and everyone needs hugs and reassurance at times.

i think that its nearly impossible to ever satisfy the desire to harm by going farther or deeper. the desire just expands. you can't ever satisfy it permanently. you just end up with permanent injuries.