Well, we like to be caught up with people places and things because they are a distraction away from things we don't like - even if its just boredom. What happens is that when the distractions are removed, certain aspects of reality we don't like come back into our awareness and this can be painful. What can happen next is we resent the things that come back to bother us and this is dangerous because it flips us into the negative side of our mind.
The mind and psyche have a bright and dark side. If you keep a light-hearted attitude toward problems (even serious ones) the mind stays safe from being pulled down into negative thinking and feeling. If you get upset all the darkness and doubt rise up to tempt you to feel fear, despair and anxiety. The mind is not meant to be in that place and you want to learn how to recognize it and not give in to it because a negative feelings create negative thoughts that aren't really "you" thinking as much as emotional impressions that take the form of thought. Your real mind works best with wordless realization and not wordy thoughts even if they use your voice.
So "no" I don't think you have a phobia per se. Don't hate school (you don't have to like it either) and you won't feel so depressed about it. Its the hostile feelings you have bringing you down more than the school itself.
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