So in 2 days it will have been 4 years since I last intentionally cut or burnt myself. I still get the urges to do it quite regularly, and i still have depression and such. i still do other, much milder forms of si occasionally.
What really surprises me is that many of my scars still have color to them after 4 years. I haven't been very good about putting cream or lotion on them regularly, but i thought by now they would be completely faded after 4 years.
So I was involved in cutting myself for 4 years, and now i am free from it for 4 years. I think that is a step in the right direction.
-brian
'in the quiet heart is hidden, sorrow that the eye can't see'
He was no longer jean valjean but no. 24601 -les miserable
Some of life's mysteries will never be solved, such as why, after spending an entire evening listenong to Bach, do I find myself humming "the birdie song".......
I am reaching, but i fall, and the stars are black and cold, as i stare into the void of a world that cannot hold- les miserables
Definitely a step in the right direction :) 4 years is great... even with urges and whatnot. Keep it up!
"God take me, because I hate me" -Underoath
We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
“Never lose faith in yourself,
and never lose hope;
remember, even when this world throws its worst and then turns its back,
there is still always hope.”
well done! i am so happy for you :) i find it impossible to stop! but anyway, maybe if you want to make the scars fade a little put some bio oil on them, and that should help.
but scars (especially burns) tend to stay there forever.
good luck with everything :)
'in the quiet heart is hidden, sorrow that the eye can't see'
