You're gonna let him get away with it? Jenna, come on.. fight this.
At least take care of them afterward!
Half Psychotic Sick Hypnotic We sat and waited for the sea
To stretch out so that we could disappear
Into the endlessness of blue Into the horror of the truth We are far less than we knew
All the more reason to make sure you clean the cuts really well! What if he used something dirty or who knows what. T is counting on you not taking care of yourself so please destroy him by taking care of yourself. We care too much about you to not want the absolute best for you.
"Death is the next great adventure"
Dumbledore, Harry Potter
The day I stop living just to protect and care for others, will be the most selfish day in my life.
YOU DO NOT DESERVE PAIN.
You do not deserve infected cuts.
Jenna, you may have used a dirty dull floor tile from what you were saying before.
PLEASE CLEAN THEM.
and stop watching Videos glamourizing SI.
Half Psychotic Sick Hypnotic We sat and waited for the sea
To stretch out so that we could disappear
Into the endlessness of blue Into the horror of the truth We are far less than we knew
the videos arent really glamorizing it just giving facts....and showing pictures....that is y i never go to you tube.....but i ventured over and got sucked in.....
as for deserving the cuts...YES I DID.....and i dont care if what i used was dirty or not.....
help is there when you need it...you just have to accept it
Ok, maybe in your mind you deserved them, can you tell us why?
please... just close youtube. I'm sorry I linked you to anything there.
Half Psychotic Sick Hypnotic We sat and waited for the sea
To stretch out so that we could disappear
Into the endlessness of blue Into the horror of the truth We are far less than we knew
You are not worthless!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If your worthless then what does that make us who spend our time supporting you? T may think your worthless, but I happen to like you lots! Having people to talk to that can understand my feelings is very valuable that makes you precious not worthless! I'm not mad I just want you to understand you have value to us here. Sorry I yelled.
"Death is the next great adventure"
Dumbledore, Harry Potter
The day I stop living just to protect and care for others, will be the most selfish day in my life.
Jenna, you are not worthless.
just look at the quotes YOU posted!
No one is useless in this world who lightens the burden of it to anyone else.
- Charles Dickens
(and you helped in my thread a few days ago, so right there youve lightened a burden)
Half Psychotic Sick Hypnotic We sat and waited for the sea
To stretch out so that we could disappear
Into the endlessness of blue Into the horror of the truth We are far less than we knew
Jenna sweetheart, *hugs* you can do this, you can fight back. you can beat him. We all believe in you and we're all here for you. Never give up the fight
You can do this.
Lots of love, xxx
Last edited by ~JellyBaby~ : 29-02-2020 at 12:57 PM.
Reason: Anon
Then do! Believe that we find you very valuable and that we would not lie about it. Why would we lie? What would be in it for us? We really care about you and want to see you happy. If there is anything we can do, please ask us (Kitty- no million dollar sugestions LOL).
"Death is the next great adventure"
Dumbledore, Harry Potter
The day I stop living just to protect and care for others, will be the most selfish day in my life.
Im trying to believe you i really am....but i feel so down now and everyone around me is so happy....im at college its supposed to be the best time of my life, but i hate it......
help is there when you need it...you just have to accept it
jenna...sweetie...what happen? u completely turned around when i was talking to you earlier you were so happy...but now... your upset...who upset you? talk to me...please. And you know im here to support you and help you hun... i want you to be happy and good. We all car very much about you. Take control sweetie...im here for you ....
This is the conversation I had with Jenna and Tarek today.
she requested I post what he did to her since she shut off her computer cuz it was hot.
as requested, i changed her messenger name to her ryl name. other than that, this is unedited (unless the censor gets some)
Disassociation and multiple personality cases are very hard cases to support, and I wish to thank all of you who are still trying to help. It can be frustrating but together we can get her through this.
[21:33] badbadkitty13: why do you need pain?
[21:35] bitheway: triggered
[21:35] badbadkitty13: work through it then, dont hurt yourself
[21:39] bitheway: but
[21:40] badbadkitty13: but what?
[21:40] bitheway: i need it
[21:43] badbadkitty13: why
[21:43] badbadkitty13: what will it solve?
[21:45] bitheway: idk
[21:45] bitheway: i just need it
[21:45] badbadkitty13: no you dont. its just gonna make things worse in the long run, and i think you know that deep down.
[21:46] bitheway: i dont care anymore
[21:46] badbadkitty13: dont give up on yourself
[21:47] bitheway: too late
[21:47] badbadkitty13: :(
[21:48] bitheway: dont b sad
[21:48] badbadkitty13: then dont be giving up on yourself
[21:49] bitheway: y not
[21:50] badbadkitty13: because its too soon for you to give up
[21:51] bitheway: eh
[21:57] bitheway: kicks self
[21:58] badbadkitty13: why you kickin yourself?
[21:58] bitheway: for pain
[21:59] badbadkitty13: :( that makes me a sad panda.
[22:00] badbadkitty13: do you watch southpark ever?
[22:00] bitheway: awww
[22:00] bitheway: dont b sad
[22:00] bitheway: jenna is only getting what the bitch deserves
****EDITED IN. ... THIS IS WHERE I FIRST REALIZED SHE HAD SWITCHED TO BEING TAREK****
[22:00] bitheway: i saw one episode
[22:01] bitheway: jenna is not a bitch
[22:01] bitheway: sad panda thing is from a southpark
[22:01] bitheway: grumbles
[22:01] badbadkitty13: why
[22:03] bitheway: *mutters under breath*
[22:04] badbadkitty13: ?
[22:04] badbadkitty13: who is this anyway?
[22:05] bitheway: *jenna is a bitch....jenna is a slut....jenna is a whore.....jenna is worthless.......* repeating over and over
[22:06] badbadkitty13: Tarek is a liar.
[22:07] bitheway: am not
[22:07] badbadkitty13: Tarek is a worthless piece of scum.
[22:07] bitheway: nope thats jenna
[22:08] badbadkitty13: Jenna is a sweet caring person. Jenna is REAL. Tarek is a predator. Tarek is nothing but a MEMORY.
[22:08] bitheway: jenna wants to die....i will help her
[22:09] badbadkitty13: Jenna wants to live.
[22:10] bitheway: nope
[22:10] badbadkitty13: JENNA COME BACK TO ME!!!!!
[22:11] bitheway: she cant hear u
[22:11] bitheway: :p
[22:12] badbadkitty13: you are a fucking terrorist. only pussies hold people hostage, which is exactly what you are doing
[22:16] bitheway: serves her right
[22:18] badbadkitty13: I refuse to sit here and listen to your threats. if i was in the room with you .. you'd pay for hurting jenna. but im not and cant be. so I'm leaving now because you WILL NOT terrorize me also. I will be back to look for Jenna later. She can message me when she is back, but I do not want to hear any more out of you.
[22:19] bitheway: haha.....yet another "friend" abanndoning her
[22:19] badbadkitty13: I'm not abandoning her. I'm refusing to argue with an unreasonable terrorist.
[22:20] badbadkitty13: I'm here for HER. not you.
[22:20] bitheway: im not a fucking terrorist
[22:20] badbadkitty13: you are.
[22:20] badbadkitty13: you are scaring people who are powerless to stop you. that makes you a terrorist.
[22:21] badbadkitty13: the only reason you tell me you are hurting jenna is to scare and anger me
[22:21] badbadkitty13: why should I keep talking to you... letting you get your kicks from this?
[22:23] bitheway: if i stop typing ill cut
[22:24] badbadkitty13: well can you type about something other than hurting jenna?
[22:24] badbadkitty13: or tell me why you hate her so much
[22:25] badbadkitty13: in realistic terms though, please
[22:25] bitheway: she was a fucking virgin....how weak
[22:25] bitheway: i had to break the seal
[22:25] badbadkitty13: why?
[22:25] bitheway: sigh
[22:26] bitheway: y what
[22:26] badbadkitty13: why did you have to break it?
[22:26] bitheway: she deserved it
[22:26] badbadkitty13: wait, before we continue, I'd like to make a deal with you.
[22:27] badbadkitty13: I will listen to what you have to say and try to reason with you but I will not call you names now.. if you promise not to hurt jenna while we are talking.
[22:27] badbadkitty13: i want to understand why you are doing all this.
[22:28] badbadkitty13: but i can't concentrate on listening to you if i think you are currently hurting her. i will be too worried.
[22:28] bitheway: i told u she deserves it
[22:29] bitheway: the scissors are on her desk....im on the loft bed
[22:29] bitheway: ill stay for now
[22:29] badbadkitty13: ok then.
[22:29] badbadkitty13: why do you believe she deserved it?
[22:30] bitheway: shes a dyke
[22:31] badbadkitty13: how can she be a dyke if she was a virgin? that implies she hadnt had sexual contact with anyone yet. if she kissed a female, the worst you can say for sure is she is bi-curious
[22:31] bitheway: eh
[22:31] bitheway: w.e
[22:32] bitheway: she classifies herself as one
[22:32] badbadkitty13: on her own, or do you tell her she is one and she believes you?
[22:33] bitheway: on her own
[22:33] bitheway: she came out to the patients thats y i did what i did
[22:34] badbadkitty13: were you a patient or a doc or a nurse.. what?
[22:34] bitheway: patient
[22:34] badbadkitty13: did you ever get caught?
[22:35] bitheway: nope
[22:35] bitheway: shes the only one....and she wont tell
[22:36] badbadkitty13: so why do you hate dykes so much?
[22:37] bitheway: they are disgusting
[22:37] bitheway: vile
[22:37] badbadkitty13: how so?
[22:37] bitheway: monsters
[22:38] bitheway: they fuck their own sex......eww
[22:39] badbadkitty13: I find it odd that you consider it so gross.
[22:40] badbadkitty13: I'm an exotic dancer.. most guys love it when we are, or pretend to be, lesbians. most money I ever made was when I did a stage set and one of the other girls came on stage with me and we were acting like we were 69ing. (we had thongs on cuz its not a full nude club)
[22:41] badbadkitty13: usually its gay men that are discriminated against
[22:42] bitheway: eh
[22:46] bitheway: scratches at self
[22:47] badbadkitty13: hey cut that out
[22:47] badbadkitty13: keep telling me your story
[22:47] badbadkitty13: i wanna know what youre all about
[22:48] bitheway: y
[22:48] badbadkitty13: so i can understand why you do this shit to my friend
[22:49] bitheway: some friend.......u were going to leave
[22:50] badbadkitty13: i was going to leave YOU, not her.
[22:51] bitheway: ssame thing
[22:50] bitheway: haha u left chat
[22:51] badbadkitty13: yeah i thought i could open the forum in a different window but i did it wrong
[22:51] badbadkitty13: igh
[22:54] bitheway: that quotes page is so stupid
[22:54] badbadkitty13: it is not
[22:54] badbadkitty13: i love it
[22:54] badbadkitty13: how do i get back to serious chat?
[22:56] bitheway: see where it says room? click serious
[22:58] bitheway: ow
[22:58] badbadkitty13: what?
[22:58] bitheway: im peeling a callous off of her foot
[22:59] badbadkitty13: is there a pumice stone in the house?
[22:59] badbadkitty13: those work great for removing callouses
[23:00] bitheway: no im at college
[23:00] bitheway: and shdeserves the pain anyway
[23:00] badbadkitty13: yeah i meant in your room
[23:02] bitheway: eh
[23:02] bitheway: no
[23:03] badbadkitty13: she does not deserve pain
[23:03] badbadkitty13: please stop hurting her if you want me to talk to you
[23:04] bitheway: shes not bleeding or anything
[23:04] bitheway: yet
[23:05] bitheway: never mind she is
[23:05] bitheway: heh
[23:05] badbadkitty13: from the callous? or did you cut her?
[23:06] bitheway: well the callous....but i need to cut it off now....its just hanging there....she cant go out with a inch or so of dead skin hangning from her foot
[23:08] badbadkitty13: yeah but you have to be careful how you cut it off or neither of you will be able to walk for a while
[23:08] badbadkitty13: please clean whatever you will cut it off with
[23:08] badbadkitty13: and dont cut anything else
[23:09] bitheway: eh
[23:11] badbadkitty13: please?
[23:11] badbadkitty13: come on, you know I'm damn near killing myself trying to be nice here.
[23:11] bitheway: some how i managed to make her bleed but still have a layer of skin on top of the cut
[23:11] badbadkitty13: like a blood blister?
[23:12] bitheway: idk
[23:12] badbadkitty13: will you stop making her bleed now?
[23:13] bitheway: eh
[23:13] bitheway: she added quote to that stupid page
[23:16] badbadkitty13: when?
[23:16] bitheway: 10 21pm
[23:16] badbadkitty13: 2 hours ago?
[23:17] bitheway: yea
[23:22] bitheway: it stings heh
[23:22] badbadkitty13: what does?
[23:22] bitheway: oo thats burnng her hehe
[23:22] badbadkitty13: what are you doing to her
[23:23] bitheway: and its barely touching her
[23:23] bitheway: heh
[23:23] bitheway: the computer charger
[23:24] badbadkitty13: ?
[23:24] badbadkitty13: laptop?
[23:24] badbadkitty13: please stop
[23:24] bitheway: yup
[23:25] bitheway: its just resting against her ankle
[23:25] bitheway: owwww
[23:25] badbadkitty13: doesnt it hurt you too?
[23:25] bitheway: heh
[23:27] bitheway: no im not real
[23:27] bitheway: shes wincing tho
[23:27] bitheway: heh
[23:27] bitheway: i wonder how burnt she will get
[23:27] badbadkitty13: please stop
[23:28] bitheway: no
[23:29] bitheway: :p
[23:29] badbadkitty13: then I have to stop talking to you
[23:30] badbadkitty13: because I cant think straight while you hurt her
[23:30] bitheway: and abandon her heh
[23:30] badbadkitty13: no, im not abandoning her. how can i if she isnt here?
[23:30] badbadkitty13: she isnt talking to me
[23:31] badbadkitty13: what good does it do her to have me watch you hurt her?
[23:31] bitheway: u aint here so u aint watching
[23:32] badbadkitty13: im watching the words that tell me what you are doing
[23:32] badbadkitty13: its about the same
[23:33] bitheway: eh
[23:33] bitheway: k i stoped
[23:33] bitheway: lets see how bad it is
[23:34] bitheway: its bright read
[23:34] bitheway: red
[23:34] bitheway: with heat radiating off
[23:34] bitheway: heh
[23:34] bitheway: its huge....shes going to have trouble hiding that....
[23:35] badbadkitty13: good. maybe someone will see and find out about you. someone who can physically be there to stop you.
[23:36] bitheway: it will prob be gone by tomorrow unless i do more
[23:36] badbadkitty13: well dont do more
[23:36] bitheway: yea more....k
[23:36] badbadkitty13: no!
[23:36] badbadkitty13: JENNA FIGHT THIS
[23:37] badbadkitty13: JEEEEENNNNNNNAAAAAAA
*** EDITED IN.. And.. poof. he goes away. ***
[23:37] bitheway: owwww :(
[23:37] bitheway: *panics and curls up in ball.....hiding from everyone*
[23:37] badbadkitty13: jenna?
[23:38] badbadkitty13: is it you again?
[23:38] bitheway: mmmm
[23:38] bitheway: it hurts
[23:38] bitheway: what happened.....
[23:38] bitheway: y is ankle bright red
[23:38] badbadkitty13: look back at the chat log
[23:39] badbadkitty13: and tell me for next time.. jenna... will you think i abandoned YOU if i refuse to talk to tarek?
[23:40] bitheway: idk everyone else refused to talk to him too....so i get no support
[23:40] badbadkitty13: well i just stayed and it kills me to watch him hurt you when i cant stop him
[23:41] badbadkitty13: and i was thinking if he doesnt get attention he may leave faster
[23:41] bitheway: eh
[23:42] badbadkitty13: sometimes the fact that i cant stop him hurting you really triggers
[23:42] bitheway: sorry.....ill shut up when he comes along
[23:42] badbadkitty13: no, if you need support ill stay if i can
[23:44] badbadkitty13: I am here for you, but I cant stop him. if it gets to be too much i will have to go so I dont end up getting hurt myself, you know?
[23:44] bitheway: yea it will b my fault if u do
[23:44] badbadkitty13: no. his
[23:45] bitheway: mine
[23:45] bitheway: my skin is peeling....already
[23:45] badbadkitty13: mine. because helplessness about him hurting you is just a gallon in the ocean...
[23:46] badbadkitty13: this time of year is so bad for me.. as far as feeling powerless
[23:46] bitheway: owwie
[23:46] bitheway: :(
[23:46] badbadkitty13: time i spend helping you and everyone else HELPS
[23:46] bitheway: :((
[23:46] bitheway: aw y
[23:46] badbadkitty13: y im powerless?
[23:46] bitheway: stings
[23:46] badbadkitty13: run cool water on it?
[23:47] bitheway: i cant....what if someone on the fl oor sees
[23:48] badbadkitty13: just say you were engrossed in studying and didnt notice your computer getting hot
[23:48] badbadkitty13: have any mustard?
[23:48] bitheway: if it stings this much now......
[23:48] bitheway: ick no
[23:49] badbadkitty13: lol i hate it too. but i know for bad sunburn at least... if you put mustard on it, let it dry then rinse.. it takes the sting out
[23:49] bitheway: really?
[23:50] bitheway: hurts like hell to touch
[23:50] bitheway: should i post on first aid forum?
[23:50] badbadkitty13: yes
[23:50] badbadkitty13: and then follow the advice
[23:51] bitheway: if so what do i say
[23:51] bitheway: what do i say
[23:51] badbadkitty13: say what you did and how the spot looks
[23:52] badbadkitty13: and ask how to care for it
[23:52] bitheway: but i dont remember what happened
[23:52] bitheway: well not exaclty
[23:52] bitheway: like how long it was on me
[23:54] badbadkitty13: about 15 to 20 minutes i think
[23:56] bitheway: owwww
[23:56] badbadkitty13: im leaving chat. i cant talk in it
[23:57] badbadkitty13: it doesnt show up for some reason
[23:57] bitheway: i see it
[23:57] badbadkitty13: i cant
[23:57] bitheway: u asked for liquid
[23:57] badbadkitty13: if u have any
[23:57] bitheway: weird this chat is messed up
[23:57] bitheway: me?
[23:58] bitheway: um wont that sting like no other tho
[23:58] badbadkitty13: what do you have?
[23:58] badbadkitty13: do you have any cold milk?
[23:58] bitheway: just soda
[23:58] badbadkitty13: no soda would be bad
[23:58] bitheway: ick dont drink milk
[23:58] badbadkitty13: vegan?
[23:58] bitheway: owwie
[23:58] bitheway: no just odnt like it
[23:59] badbadkitty13: ok
[23:59] badbadkitty13: just curious cuz im vegetarian
[23:59] bitheway: k
[00:00] bitheway: that does not look good at all
[00:00] bitheway: do i tell him he did it to me?
[00:00] bitheway: first aid* not him
[00:00] bitheway: would it b bad if i cut over the burn
[00:01] badbadkitty13: it would be VERY bad to cut over the burn!
[00:01] badbadkitty13: it would be very very likely to get infected
[00:01] bitheway: y
[00:01] badbadkitty13: please
[00:01] badbadkitty13: do not
[00:02] badbadkitty13: because burns make gooey stuff that shouldnt be in cuts
[00:02] bitheway: scissors are on my bed tho
[00:02] badbadkitty13: first aid ppl can explain better than I
[00:02] badbadkitty13: JENNA
[00:02] bitheway: its not gooey
[00:02] badbadkitty13: STOP IT
[00:02] bitheway: just stings like a mother fucker
[00:02] badbadkitty13: DO NOT CUT
[00:03] badbadkitty13: you already got burned, I need to go eat something and take some medicine but i dont want to be worrying about you or i wont be able to eat
[00:04] badbadkitty13: can you please please please just promise me you will not hurt yourself any more till i come back?
[00:04] bitheway: i can try
[00:04] badbadkitty13: try herd, ok?
[00:05] bitheway: dont worry about me
[00:05] badbadkitty13: *hard
[00:05] badbadkitty13: I cant just shut off the caring.
[00:05] bitheway: how about this....i put the scissors where i cant see them then go back on my bed
[00:05] badbadkitty13: ok
[00:05] bitheway: thats the best i can do
[00:05] badbadkitty13: dont put the charger on you any more either
[00:06] badbadkitty13: and dont pick at it if it is peeling, that will make it worse
[00:06] badbadkitty13: ill be back in a bit.
[00:11] bitheway: k
Half Psychotic Sick Hypnotic We sat and waited for the sea
To stretch out so that we could disappear
Into the endlessness of blue Into the horror of the truth We are far less than we knew
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