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Contains bullying - I want to help
I was bullied for a number of years. It was a painful and harrowing experience leading to a long battle with self harm, low self esteem, troubled relationships and other social issues. I believe I am mostly recovered now at age 27 but I still carry a few behavioural/mood hangovers. However in a way i don't regret it because it carved out a large part of who I am today and I think it made me a better person. I have a very strong sense of empathy and I hate doing anything that might hurt another. I am also very resilient. I tend to think nothing can hurt me as much as those days, so any problems that come, I bounce through them and get over it. People wonder how I can live life with so little worry lol! I just want to tell them, this money problem, this relationship issue... it's nothing... NOTHING compared to 5 years of total social isolation and constant emotional torture... I got this guys don't worry :P
Recently I've been analysing myself and the past and trying to figure out just how bullying carved my personality out, as I think I buried it all for a number of years.
I wrote this song as a result, and I wanted to share with you. If one person empathises with it then my work here is done. I decided recently that to make the whole experience worth while I want to be able to help other people going through it and show them that there is a light at the end of it and not to ever give in!
Buried in the Peat: [ame="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lX13viui7fM"]Fay Brotherhood - Buried in the Peat - YouTube[/ame]
If anyone wants any advice at all, please feel free to message me :)
xx
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