So I went to my doctor to tell her I was having "bad" thoughts again, the anxiety is getting worse and i feel like there's two of me in my head battling for power. She said she didn't know what to do with me and she's reffering me to a Mental Health Team. I'm scared. With the track record of my OD and stuff I'm scared they'll section me. I'm scared because I dont know whats wrong with me all i know is i'm so anxious and scared of everything even myself. I'm having panic attacks more, my sleep is disrupted more and my meds from my doctor aren't working anymore. I keep fantasizing about "methods" of ending it all, i dont want to do anything but its almost like a safety blanket to me at the moment. I feel like a lost cause, i feel so alone. i got an assessment appointment on october 19th.. i'm scared.
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it doesn't sound to me like shes given up on you. rather, it sounds like she cares about you and what happens to you enough to admit that she doesn't know how to handle the situation so she's leading you to someone better suited to help you. you wouldn't go to your gp to get heart surgery done. just like you'd need a specialized doctor to do surgery, you'll need someone more trained in mental health to help you.
not knowing whats wrong is definately scary, but hopefully by going to the mental health team and being honest, you'll be able to find out whats going on. and you can tell them that you're scared of being sectioned as well, i doubt that sectioning someone is an act that they take lightly.
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Sectioning is a last resort - if you're working with them it's extremely unlikely. And what PE says about your GP caring about you, the point of GPs is that they can handle a range of common ailments up to a certain level, after that they refer you to someone who is specialised. Often the specialist will see you until your condition stabilises, then will hand back to the GP for on-going treatment.
I think your doctor is just wanting to refer you to somebody who can help you further, somebody with specialist knowledge and experience. I know it's extremely difficult to comprehend the idea of there being positives from this, but if you can try to understand what's happening is for the best (the referral) - you'll be able to see what happens when you get an appointment with them.
Like it's been written above, sectioning is a last resort. It may be worth noting down some bullet points on how you've been feeling for the assessment you're going to have - you wouldn't want to miss anything out. Your appointment is a positive thing, the assessor will be there to help you, not to judge. Stay strong.
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thanks everyone for your replies, I've been feeling really paranoid and anxious of late, what everyone has said really does make sense. i think i will write down some bullet points. My current meds aren't working anymore either and that is making things difficult too. Sorry can't really keep to one trail of thought at the minute my head feels like its spinning constantly. thanks again for your replies
As scary as the appoinment is, it sounds like you have been referred to the mh care team so that they can assess what support can be provided for you. In most cases, you can still continue seeing your GP alongside the mh care team, for your prescriptions and to check in with them, so they have not given up on you - They just are not trained to provide the level of help you need right now, so they are being honest and helping you to get that help.
It sounds like you are struggling a lot right now, so I hope the assesment helps you get some help and some understanding of what is going on for you.
Maybe check in with your GP after the appointment, so that you can discuss it with them?
Be gentle with yourself.
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thankyou for your replies again, i'm really not in a good place right now not too good with words, sorry but thanks for your replies and kind words i appreciate them :)
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