...I've been on RYL for a while now and have posted in the ED board...but have been too embarrassed to admit to anyone, even myself I suppose, that I binge...a lot...and overeat...but I guess I need to get it out now to people who will understand...so I wanted to say hello to people on here **shy wave**...there are things I need to say, things I need to admit to so I can begin to work forward...but I can't...not yet...sorry ...
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╰☆╮Are you afraid of the good you might do?╰☆╮
✪ If the soul is left in darkness, sins will be committed. The guilty one is not he who commits the sin, but the one who causes the darkness ✪
Hi
Sorry that you haven't had a reply this board can be rather slow sometimes. I can understand the embarrassment that comes with admitting you have a problem with a binge eating but admitting it is a problem is a great first step. It's okay your not ready to completely talk about things yet, I still struggle to talk about certain things so you are not alone.
Have you thought about going to a doctor to get some support for your binge eating? Also maybe writing in a journal might be helpful for you, I find it is a good outlet to let out some feelings as well as being able to see where I am at. Also the big pink comfy couch thread is also a good place to talk to others going through similar struggles so feel free to post in there, everyone is super friendly. You might also helpful to have some healthier snacks around such as fruit, yoghurt, nuts or even to make a smoothie. Hope some of this helps. Take care
Kat xxx
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Hey. Thank you for the reply I had an ED assessment a couple of months ago, but couldn't in any way begin to talk about the overeating aspects...I told them about the restriction and purging and pills aspects but was far too ashamed to mention the overeating....although they must have known...I mean, I wouldn't be anywhere near the size I am if I had problems "only" in the restriction/purging aspects. I'm waiting for a referral from my new doctor to an ED psych for therapy...but I don't know if I'll be brave enough :-s
╰☆╮Are you afraid of the good you might do?╰☆╮
✪ If the soul is left in darkness, sins will be committed. The guilty one is not he who commits the sin, but the one who causes the darkness ✪
Honestly hun I was ashamed about the overeating too, actually still am but my doctor was and is still so good about it. Not judgmental at all. They treat people all the time with all kinds of eating issues so they won't judge you.
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Laxatives won't help hun, they will only cause alot of damage to your body. Is there anything in particular that is making things so difficult for you at the moment?
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Sorry for the really late reply, been a bit distracted by everything and nothing. I'm still struggling, I'm so f*cking huge and I hate myself so f*cking much I can't bring myself to hug my boyfriend closely because otherwise he'll feel all the fatness even more than just seeing it....I wish I would die
╰☆╮Are you afraid of the good you might do?╰☆╮
✪ If the soul is left in darkness, sins will be committed. The guilty one is not he who commits the sin, but the one who causes the darkness ✪
I'm sorry that your feeling this bad, I know how awful and isolating the thoughts can get. Try and remember though your boyfriend is with you because he cares about you and sees something good in you. How is the binge eating? Have you ever thought about why you binge eat? Take care
Kat xxx
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
He sat and read my assessment in front of me...I've never been so ashamed in my life...but he's putting forward a referral for me so hopefully it'll be okay. He said that the assessment recommended specialist therapy but I can't for the life of me see anything in the assessment that would be 'specialist'...apparently I'm just too fat for anything at all
╰☆╮Are you afraid of the good you might do?╰☆╮
✪ If the soul is left in darkness, sins will be committed. The guilty one is not he who commits the sin, but the one who causes the darkness ✪
Sorry you had to go through that it must have been hard to listen to but it's positive that they are recommending therapy it will give you a chance to begin to work through things and hopefully a chance for things to improve for you. Maybe you could ask them what they mean by 'specialist'? I doubt it is because they think you are too fat for anything. Try and be kind to yourself yeah?
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Thank you for your replies, they mean a lot I'll see what happens with the referral and if I haven't heard anything by the next time I go to my Doctor, I'll ask him xxx
╰☆╮Are you afraid of the good you might do?╰☆╮
✪ If the soul is left in darkness, sins will be committed. The guilty one is not he who commits the sin, but the one who causes the darkness ✪
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I had an ED assessment a couple of months ago, but couldn't in any way begin to talk about the overeating aspects...I told them about the restriction and purging and pills aspects but was far too ashamed to mention the overeating....although they must have known...I mean, I wouldn't be anywhere near the size I am if I had problems "only" in the restriction/purging aspects. I'm waiting for a referral from my new doctor to an ED psych for therapy...but I don't know if I'll be brave enough :-s
I can't bring myself to hug my boyfriend closely because otherwise he'll feel all the fatness even more than just seeing it....I wish I would die 